Happily Ever (never)

[_heero_yuy_]

So where do the lines begin to blur? Where can I find my “happy medium”?? Is there salvation for the death, resurrection, and death again of the strongest power in the world?

Geez… I don’t feel like making it go that way, but god-damnit, I can’t help it this time!

I mean, What the FUCK!?…..

… I’m so messed up inside.

Well, I have transcended the bounds that, for the longest time of my memories, held me tightly to my bloody heart. What the hell did that get me!?

NOTHING!… that’s what it fuckin’ got me…

…nothing…

So where do I go now? I wanted my life to change, to be so different, but I’m caught in this deadly circle of truth. I wanted to experience the other side of the fence. I wanted to wake in the morning with no doubts of the future. I wanted to begin a new. I wanted to be THE ONE. I wanted it all to be this happily ever after I could never see in the sunset. I wanted so much for everything I gave/would give…

… but the want was most for an US in the midst of the you and me.

That’s what I get for wishing and wanting.. A pile of shit.

But it just goes to show you… “there can be those that dream up the most wonderful ideas, but it’s the ones that create them that get their ‘happily ever after’”…

… my happily ever after.

~NH