"Drifting further everyday, getting lost within myself, nothing matters, no one else.."
"Things not what they used to be
Missing one inside of me
Deathly loss this, can't be real
Can't stand this hell i feel
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now he's gone"
I am so tired of the people in my life. It's not all of them, but just a select few. I have surrounded myself with such shitty people. I've realized who are my real friends and who arent. I think the greatest friends that I have are Brittiany and Courtney. I need them right now more than ever. I miss them so much. Me and Aaron are back together but yet I still feel so sad. I want these people out of my life and I'm scared that I'm just going to have to deal with it. I want to be a better person. Something needs to change...soon. Dont get me wrong..I'm estatic that me and aaron are back together, but I just have this terrible feeling that its going to be the same way it was. I want to quit drugs, drinking, EVERYTHING. I dont want to be like this forever and those people are just going to keep bringing me down. The temptation is still there. Right now I want to go out and buy like 20 pills and drink myself to death. I'm just so tired. I need help. I want to get this burden out of the way. I want to get those people out of my life. I need to do this for myself. I need to start caring for myself. I'm not that person anymore. I dont need low life drug addicted, alcoholic, lying people around me right now. I need my real friends. those people that really, honestly care about ME. I dont wanna feel alone anymore. I want to feel like I've got someone...Please help me...please..
Missing one inside of me
Deathly loss this, can't be real
Can't stand this hell i feel
Emptiness is filling me
To the point of agony
Growing darkness taking dawn
I was me, but now he's gone"
I am so tired of the people in my life. It's not all of them, but just a select few. I have surrounded myself with such shitty people. I've realized who are my real friends and who arent. I think the greatest friends that I have are Brittiany and Courtney. I need them right now more than ever. I miss them so much. Me and Aaron are back together but yet I still feel so sad. I want these people out of my life and I'm scared that I'm just going to have to deal with it. I want to be a better person. Something needs to change...soon. Dont get me wrong..I'm estatic that me and aaron are back together, but I just have this terrible feeling that its going to be the same way it was. I want to quit drugs, drinking, EVERYTHING. I dont want to be like this forever and those people are just going to keep bringing me down. The temptation is still there. Right now I want to go out and buy like 20 pills and drink myself to death. I'm just so tired. I need help. I want to get this burden out of the way. I want to get those people out of my life. I need to do this for myself. I need to start caring for myself. I'm not that person anymore. I dont need low life drug addicted, alcoholic, lying people around me right now. I need my real friends. those people that really, honestly care about ME. I dont wanna feel alone anymore. I want to feel like I've got someone...Please help me...please..