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So in about 3.5 hours I will be with my best friend. I'm too excited about everything that's about to go down!!! I know I've been up and down this past month.. and I mean that's natural. That's expected. Breaking up was hard, but it made me stronger. I'd never felt the way I felt with Colin, but I'm okay not feeling that. Sure I miss you. Sure, I do. But I don't wish we were still together. I don't pray for a miracle with you anymore. I deserve better than you, you were right when you said that.
Anyway, that's enough about that. I've been unusually happy lately. Honestly, I don't know why. But I think it has something to do with the way I've been living. I've been trying my hardest to be a good person and to put others before myself. My family has been so great lately. My friends are beautiful beautiful people. I always knew this, but for some reason I'm really really realizing their beauty NOW. There are so many people that have touched my life. So many wonderful, beautiful souls that have made me put a smile on, have hugged me 'til my brains fell out, have made me laugh, made me happy with myself. I can't distinguish all of them, but certainly Natalie has been a huge shoulder to lean on. I love you girl, so so so much. I'm so excited about spending Spring Break with you. I wouldn't have it any other way!! Aaron has also been a major influence. I mean, when he lived here we didn't talk much.. only when we saw eachother. Now, he's one of my closest friends. I could tell him almost anything in complete confidence. [if you read this, I'm really sorry I always fall asleep on the phone.] Tyler, too, has been such a great friend. I can't thank you enough for everything!
Okay, I feel like I'm writing a Thank You speech.. and I'm not. I just need to express my gratitude to these people. I need to let them know how much they mean to me. I need to paint. Really paint. Because I haven't in a while. My hands miss the brushes. My fingers miss the smudging, the blending.
I can't write anymore.. I'M TOO EXCITED. John Mayer, here I come.
Anyway, that's enough about that. I've been unusually happy lately. Honestly, I don't know why. But I think it has something to do with the way I've been living. I've been trying my hardest to be a good person and to put others before myself. My family has been so great lately. My friends are beautiful beautiful people. I always knew this, but for some reason I'm really really realizing their beauty NOW. There are so many people that have touched my life. So many wonderful, beautiful souls that have made me put a smile on, have hugged me 'til my brains fell out, have made me laugh, made me happy with myself. I can't distinguish all of them, but certainly Natalie has been a huge shoulder to lean on. I love you girl, so so so much. I'm so excited about spending Spring Break with you. I wouldn't have it any other way!! Aaron has also been a major influence. I mean, when he lived here we didn't talk much.. only when we saw eachother. Now, he's one of my closest friends. I could tell him almost anything in complete confidence. [if you read this, I'm really sorry I always fall asleep on the phone.] Tyler, too, has been such a great friend. I can't thank you enough for everything!
Okay, I feel like I'm writing a Thank You speech.. and I'm not. I just need to express my gratitude to these people. I need to let them know how much they mean to me. I need to paint. Really paint. Because I haven't in a while. My hands miss the brushes. My fingers miss the smudging, the blending.
I can't write anymore.. I'M TOO EXCITED. John Mayer, here I come.