I don't wanna be your lover, I just wanna be your friend...
Last tuesday, I picked up a book from the Campus for Christ booth at Yorkfest.
The book is called Soul Cravings by Erwin Raphael McManus.
The rep at C4C said that the book was a philosophical look into proving the existence of God. I said, Cool. (There was another one, which was scientific-based but I felt bad snatching two since I had no plans to sign up for their club =T)
I started reading a couple days ago and the first few 'entries' of the first chapter talks about our innate need for love. Whether that's experiencing joy or enduring through the pain, we are created to love.
I guess I've never noticed as much as before but people are so affected by love - or at least, the idea of it. Many of my friends have been hurt by love and others never stop chasing it. I guess it's important to note that it's the kind of love that first comes to mind. The Lovey-dovey kind of love.
Yet our idea of what love is and/or should be is influenced by all sorts of things we've seen and been through; by all sorts of people we've been with and have spoken about it to.
And the harder we try to fit our own idea of 'what should be' into reality, the more we lose sense of what we truly want.
I suppose, I just really wanted to make a point by saying that I never realised how important it is to know and love yourself first. That's a huge task in itself, and I can only imagine what it would be like for someone else to take that time to truly know me and love me for all my idiosyncrasies.
What I didn't expect to find in this book was the affirmation that God is Love. We are created by God. We are created IN love, and thus created TO love. So in order to really 'find yourself', you need to find and accept God. To accept Him and be rooted in Him; to choose to live as a Man or Woman of God. And THAT is the hardest part of it all.
I can't really deny that I'm writing this as a result of meeting and getting to know people this week. Not necessarily just guys but girls as well. It's refreshing to know that odds of 1 out of 20 guys NOT being a creeper still exists. It's comforting to chat with girls who give you the most genuine smile and hug, even when they only see you once a week. The kind of people I can't really help but care about regardless of how long I've known them.
All of this while I struggle to find and BE myself. It's almost impossible NOT to be but I know that I need to skip around outside my comfort zone once in a while.
So really, I'm looking forward to what the next few weeks has in store for me. On the other hand, I think I'm gonna move on past the 'relationship' part of the book...Sometimes, you just really have to let those things unfold.
The book is called Soul Cravings by Erwin Raphael McManus.
The rep at C4C said that the book was a philosophical look into proving the existence of God. I said, Cool. (There was another one, which was scientific-based but I felt bad snatching two since I had no plans to sign up for their club =T)
I started reading a couple days ago and the first few 'entries' of the first chapter talks about our innate need for love. Whether that's experiencing joy or enduring through the pain, we are created to love.
I guess I've never noticed as much as before but people are so affected by love - or at least, the idea of it. Many of my friends have been hurt by love and others never stop chasing it. I guess it's important to note that it's the kind of love that first comes to mind. The Lovey-dovey kind of love.
Yet our idea of what love is and/or should be is influenced by all sorts of things we've seen and been through; by all sorts of people we've been with and have spoken about it to.
And the harder we try to fit our own idea of 'what should be' into reality, the more we lose sense of what we truly want.
I suppose, I just really wanted to make a point by saying that I never realised how important it is to know and love yourself first. That's a huge task in itself, and I can only imagine what it would be like for someone else to take that time to truly know me and love me for all my idiosyncrasies.
What I didn't expect to find in this book was the affirmation that God is Love. We are created by God. We are created IN love, and thus created TO love. So in order to really 'find yourself', you need to find and accept God. To accept Him and be rooted in Him; to choose to live as a Man or Woman of God. And THAT is the hardest part of it all.
I can't really deny that I'm writing this as a result of meeting and getting to know people this week. Not necessarily just guys but girls as well. It's refreshing to know that odds of 1 out of 20 guys NOT being a creeper still exists. It's comforting to chat with girls who give you the most genuine smile and hug, even when they only see you once a week. The kind of people I can't really help but care about regardless of how long I've known them.
All of this while I struggle to find and BE myself. It's almost impossible NOT to be but I know that I need to skip around outside my comfort zone once in a while.
So really, I'm looking forward to what the next few weeks has in store for me. On the other hand, I think I'm gonna move on past the 'relationship' part of the book...Sometimes, you just really have to let those things unfold.