I'm sorry I haven't been updating lately.
Yesterday was perfect.
I felt okay for the first time in months. All the memories I've been trying to forget and all the days I spent locked in my room just kind of disappered. Yesterday made all the unbearable things that Ben did seem okay. I guess this is proof that you really can lose someone you love and things will turn out okay. One day.
Rob picked me up and we went to a party in Shaun's dorm. Ben wasn't there. We kissed and he held my hand and he carried me outside and whispered in my ear. He made me laugh and he didn't drink. He put my jacket on for me when we left and he wore my scarf and mittens and we ran around the parking lot and kissed some more and laughed and fell in the grass. I had butterflies.
I have to go to class now. I don't think I can concentrate on anything though, my mind wont stop replaying over and over again. It feels nice to be happy again.
I felt okay for the first time in months. All the memories I've been trying to forget and all the days I spent locked in my room just kind of disappered. Yesterday made all the unbearable things that Ben did seem okay. I guess this is proof that you really can lose someone you love and things will turn out okay. One day.
Rob picked me up and we went to a party in Shaun's dorm. Ben wasn't there. We kissed and he held my hand and he carried me outside and whispered in my ear. He made me laugh and he didn't drink. He put my jacket on for me when we left and he wore my scarf and mittens and we ran around the parking lot and kissed some more and laughed and fell in the grass. I had butterflies.
I have to go to class now. I don't think I can concentrate on anything though, my mind wont stop replaying over and over again. It feels nice to be happy again.