I changed this entry.
let's try this again now that I am a bit calm.
I'm grounded for a week. I'll get over it. that's not why I am mad at her.
I am mad at her because of the things that she says to me and the things that she does to me.
I am mad that she tells me I can't do anything right. and that there is something wrong with me.
because I know that it's true.
but she isnt perfect either.
does she even know how she looks when she's outside screaming at me at the top of her lungs, telling me i cant do anything just because I put the wrong bag in the garbage can??
she is insane.
instead of focussing on the fact that I have a messy room, and I can't clean the recycling the way you want me to why don't you focus on the fact that I'm not a bad kid.
she grounds us for such idiotic reasons. sometimes I wish I was such a "bad kid" so then she'd have a reason to be so dissapointed in me. but she'd probably rather have a coked up whore for a daughter than a messy one.
I really try to make her happy but I just never can.
I guess I'm just not good enough.
If I'm not good enough for her how will I ever be good enough for anyone.
it's like no one in this house cares. only javier and he's not my blood.
and my sister only cares when she can see her whore.
I dont care if she dosen't take away my punishment. she is satan, now that I told her at least she's aware of it.
IN THE PAST 24 HOURS
have you cried? yes
been to a concert? no
been told you were hot? yes
taken a bath? I havent taken a bath in weeks.
watched tv? no
FAVORITES
bands: afi, as i lay dying, avenged sevenfold, iron maiden, placebo, himsa, incubus
band of the moment: too many.
song of the moment: as i lay dying - falling upon deaf ears
food: italian, malaysian
phrase: no manches
RELATIONSHIPS
do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? no
if no why? i suck? no one has asked me out. wait, I lied.
do you want a boyfriend/girlfriend? it dosent matter.
do you have a secret crush? if I told you it wouldnt be a secret.
RANDOM
what bands have you seen live? avenged sevenfold, from autumn to ashes, as i lay dying, mercury switch, nora, the judas cradle, vendetta red, the juliana theory, something corporate (alright not by choice), crematorium, lots of local bands,
do people find you attractive? maybe.
what are you eating right now? your soul.
why are you taking this quiz? to get my mind off my mother. but it hasnt worked. fuck you.
I'm grounded for a week. I'll get over it. that's not why I am mad at her.
I am mad at her because of the things that she says to me and the things that she does to me.
I am mad that she tells me I can't do anything right. and that there is something wrong with me.
because I know that it's true.
but she isnt perfect either.
does she even know how she looks when she's outside screaming at me at the top of her lungs, telling me i cant do anything just because I put the wrong bag in the garbage can??
she is insane.
instead of focussing on the fact that I have a messy room, and I can't clean the recycling the way you want me to why don't you focus on the fact that I'm not a bad kid.
she grounds us for such idiotic reasons. sometimes I wish I was such a "bad kid" so then she'd have a reason to be so dissapointed in me. but she'd probably rather have a coked up whore for a daughter than a messy one.
I really try to make her happy but I just never can.
I guess I'm just not good enough.
If I'm not good enough for her how will I ever be good enough for anyone.
it's like no one in this house cares. only javier and he's not my blood.
and my sister only cares when she can see her whore.
I dont care if she dosen't take away my punishment. she is satan, now that I told her at least she's aware of it.
IN THE PAST 24 HOURS
have you cried? yes
been to a concert? no
been told you were hot? yes
taken a bath? I havent taken a bath in weeks.
watched tv? no
FAVORITES
bands: afi, as i lay dying, avenged sevenfold, iron maiden, placebo, himsa, incubus
band of the moment: too many.
song of the moment: as i lay dying - falling upon deaf ears
food: italian, malaysian
phrase: no manches
RELATIONSHIPS
do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? no
if no why? i suck? no one has asked me out. wait, I lied.
do you want a boyfriend/girlfriend? it dosent matter.
do you have a secret crush? if I told you it wouldnt be a secret.
RANDOM
what bands have you seen live? avenged sevenfold, from autumn to ashes, as i lay dying, mercury switch, nora, the judas cradle, vendetta red, the juliana theory, something corporate (alright not by choice), crematorium, lots of local bands,
do people find you attractive? maybe.
what are you eating right now? your soul.
why are you taking this quiz? to get my mind off my mother. but it hasnt worked. fuck you.