AH HEM

[_gwgnt]

Well I haven't updated in about a million years. I've been super busy hanging out with Matt I am over his house like at least 6 days at week but usually 7 lol... Things are going sooooo great between us I am so happy

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[gwgno]

There is so much I want to say, but I can't. I'm not even gonna reply back to this like I want to, because honestly that hit me so hard I can't even think of how to say whats on my mind. If you really feel like I lost our friendship then I apologize. I don't really agree with that, but if thats how you feel I am sorry. I am sorry if I ever hurt you, or got in the way of you and Matt's relationship. I never intended to mess things up, and I don't think I did. I never did anything to you or Matt. I'm not even gonna be a bitch to you, even though thats how you are to me.. and thats how you were even when we were friends. I'm sorry if I put all of this on you all the time, and if I constantly say that Matt is the reason why we arent friends anymore. I guess its just really hard for me, because I considered you a best friend. I just miss how things used to be. I miss being able to tell you everything, and I miss you comin over and actin stupid. Things are not the same now, its like I'm not even the same person. But, like you said, thats all my fault. Maybe you are right, maybe thats how I will end up and maybe I did throw my life away. But before, you used to care. Or at least you acted like you did. See the difference between us now.. is that I still do care. Even though you completly dropped me out of nowhere for Matt, and even though all you ever did to me was tell me that my boyfriend was terrible while I still supported your relationship, and even though what you wrote up there hit me so hard.. I still care. I am sorry if I caused you and Matt problems. And I am very sorry that we can't be friends. I miss you Jessee, I guess thats the only thing wrong with me. And I'm sorry if I come off as a bitch sometimes, but I guess it just hurts. I do care about you though, I'm sure that doesn't matter to you. But seriously Jessee, good luck with everything. I don't hate you, I just miss how things used to be. It hurts me more than anything to see how you are now. Do you realize what you just wrote up there? Matt did that to you. Or maybe he didn't, maybe you are just not who I thought you are. Well, whatever it is, just remember this.. if you think back a while ago, before Matt.. I was there. And then, I helped get you two together, and I was still there. And then, I thought things between you two were getting bad, but I was still there. Now, you don't have room for me anymore because you have made Matt your life, and you completly tore me apart with the shit you think about me, but look.. I'm still there. I hope everything works out with you and Matt. And don't worry about me or Henry, we will both stay out of your way.