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Write 10 things about 10 different people, (good or bad) with no names, let your feelings come out.
HERE ARE THE FIRST 2.
1. ________ You used to be special in my eyes, Ever since that one night at Julies. Everytime I saw you, you put a huge smile on my face. We went everywhere. We lived out life. Days spent in Venice Beach, drinking, sex, and music. Driving through tunnels making wishes Sitting with our chairs back looking at the stars Listening to classical music Fucking under your car Nights spent with the gym Late night calls Getting caught by the 50's Late night drives to an ice creamless mc donalds Holding hands Kissing Touching FEELING LOVED! You made me feel so wanted and so happy. I gave you a peice of me that NO ONE was supposed to have for a long time. I was blind. ____Told me that you were just a horrible person and this and that....But I was deaf and blind. I shut them out because guess what? YOU FUCKING FOOLED ME. You’re such a great actor. Am I supposed to believe you when you say..." I really did love you" Ask anyone. Then you left to go to boarding school. It was like someone had just taken a peice of me away. And I knew that I had to wait to see you...instead of just calling you up for us to go out. I had to wait till the holidays to see you. When you left for school, I left on vacation. Boy did I have a fucking surprise wen I came home. You had asked out my best fucking friend. Do you know how many days and nights I spent crying for you? I wish I stabbed myself for every tear you fucking made me shed. Then you wouldnt be able to see me anymore. My body and flesh would be gone. I cried and cried until my body turned into a desert. I still cry to this day. But I dont know why. Can you tell me? Can you open my fucking eyes? Just fucking stop you fucking dirty ass bastard. WE BOTH FUCKING HOPE YOU GET AIDS AND DIE A SLOW paainful death. I wish death upon you.
2. I dont believe in you. I dont believe in the great things you did and the great things you do for people today. You write this great book so everyone can follow your words and your teachings. I dont believe you exist. You say there is a heaven and a hell. I say...How do we know that? When people die do they come down and tell us what its like in heaven? All the pretty things there are for us to see and do? Heaven in my head is an excuse made up so people wont be afraid of death. Well guess what!? Im fucking afraid of dying. When I die and my soul leaves this earth, It will be like I was never here. I want to be something important. I want to solve world hunger. Or find a cure for cancer. I want to make world peace. I want to make myself into a movie star. I want to be something that the world will remember. When I die I will just be another body buried 6 feet under. Soon we'll run out of places for dead bodies. Your idea of dying and death in general gives me a panic attack. Its like my heart races and I start to cry and then Im just in a panic. Im so scared and there’s nothing I can do about it.