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Some songs just say it all .... but theres so much more i could say ..
I woke up early this morning around 4am
With the moon shining bright as headlights on the interstate
I pulled the covers over my head and tried to catch some sleep
But thoughts of us kept keeping me awake
Ever since you found yourself in someone else's arms
I've been tryin' my best to get along
But that's OK
There's nothing left to say, but
Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me
I went out driving trying to clear my head
I tried to sweep out all the ruins that my emotions left
I guess I'm feeling just a little tired of this
And all the baggage that seems to still exist
It seems the only blessing I have left to my name
Is not knowing what we could have been
What we should have been
So
Take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and take your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me
Someday I'm gonna run across your mind
Don't worry, I'll be fine
I'm gonna be alright
While you're sleeping with your pride
Wishing I could hold you tight
I'll be over you
And on with my life
So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we have nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me
So take your records, take your freedom
Take your memories I don't need'em
Take your space and all your reasons
But you'll think of me
And take your cat and leave my sweater
'Cause we got nothing left to weather
In fact I'll feel a whole lot better
But you'll think of me, you'll think of me, yeah
And you're gonna think of me
Oh someday baby, someday
Taryn and Caleb.. well there isnt one anymore
why you may ask ? hah i'd love to tell you but there really isnt a good logical reason .. lets just say hes VERY confused .. his feelings are totally screwed up .. and hes just a complete liar
so how could i fall so hard for someone like that ? why did he make me feel the way he did .. like i was special .. like i meant something to him .. like "we" were right for each other ? i felt so sure when ignored what everyone said ..
- " you derserve so much better "
- " he wont treat you right "
but i DIDNT and thats what makes me so mad at myself.. i ignored what was right in front of my face .. the little act he put on .. to be that "perfect guy " , was all false . But oh did i fall for it , and the saddest part of all .. is that the first time he made a mistake by liking one of my BEST FRIENDS .. i still took him back .. and now after everything hes done and all the lies told .. i still miss him . I still wait for his call , and im always thinking about him . Everything reminds me of him , every little song he would sing to me , every place he would take me to , and just the little things he would leave for me . I wanna act like i dont miss him , and that i could care less if he doesnt call , but its hard . It hurts knowing he still cares , and that he DOES miss me , and i just have to try so hard not to give in , because right now we cant be back together , it just wouldnt work .
3 more days until i sail away to paradise ! Im so excited , brooke and I are going on our first cruise , and Ive been looking forward to it for almost 2 months .. and now .. its finally here ! i need to get away .. from him ,to be somewhere , where i wont have to think about him , and hopefully even meet other guys ! =0)
Andrea - my darling ! ive just read about everything thats going on ! i love you and im praying for you and your family ! I hope everything works out for the best , and please keep God in mind always . He will bring you through this in ways you couldnt imagine ! i love you !!
I will not leave you comfortless: I will come to you.
John 14:18
Well im off to finish packing !
love love