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I never really use this for venting that much anymore, but I just got put in the worst mood.
I guess I'll get straight to the point. I fucking hate my mother right now, as [ I ] speak. She just always makes me feel like shit, like I'm pretty much nothing to her anymore. I know thats so typical of a teenager to say, but thats just the honest truth. Everytime I talk to her, I don't think the conversation could be any shorter. She just gets straight to the point. I just hate coming home and feeling like I should be hiding something. The other night I came home a half hour late, and I think my make-up was kind of smeared on my face because I was at Ram's Horn all night [and the smoke bothers my eyes] and she thought I was drunk. I was perfectly sober. It just pisses me off. Then she tried to tell me to be home at 11:30 the next night, because I came home a half hour late the night before. I had been planing on going to this party with my sister and all of our friends and she knew it too! I was just so fucking pissed off. I'm so sick of trying to play suck up with her. Theres nothing to suck up for. I don't want to impress her anymore. Theres nothing there. I'm thankful for everything that she gives me, and thankful for the leway that I get from my parents, but you know...it's all getting old. I just want to be on my own for about a month. Just me, by myself, no one else. Not even my best friend.
I'm done.
I guess I'll get straight to the point. I fucking hate my mother right now, as [ I ] speak. She just always makes me feel like shit, like I'm pretty much nothing to her anymore. I know thats so typical of a teenager to say, but thats just the honest truth. Everytime I talk to her, I don't think the conversation could be any shorter. She just gets straight to the point. I just hate coming home and feeling like I should be hiding something. The other night I came home a half hour late, and I think my make-up was kind of smeared on my face because I was at Ram's Horn all night [and the smoke bothers my eyes] and she thought I was drunk. I was perfectly sober. It just pisses me off. Then she tried to tell me to be home at 11:30 the next night, because I came home a half hour late the night before. I had been planing on going to this party with my sister and all of our friends and she knew it too! I was just so fucking pissed off. I'm so sick of trying to play suck up with her. Theres nothing to suck up for. I don't want to impress her anymore. Theres nothing there. I'm thankful for everything that she gives me, and thankful for the leway that I get from my parents, but you know...it's all getting old. I just want to be on my own for about a month. Just me, by myself, no one else. Not even my best friend.
I'm done.