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no matter what, i am in driver's ed in my head forever and i didnt have a car then and i don't have a fucking strobe now. i am stressed out forever and i want to be floating in this but not drowning because i want to feel completely filled up with what i want to do but still feel on top of it and able to function at the same time. on friday someone at work told me to never give up what i want to do for the sake of versatility. he said that i would wind up old and full of regret. id probably have like 3 cars and 2 houses though. some things mean more to me than money and things and eating sleeping. i dont know if ill ever be able to fully explain it to anyone and i dont want to need any sort of approval but please like this and me is what it always comes down to in my head. what wherehowwhywhen is beyond confusing right now. how is it that i can feel all of that but have a heart explosion every day that makes everything mean nothing and everything at once. buttonspreciousputitinajar oh. everything is gonna be ok on the way to farawayfromhere.