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sometimes i wish some inadvertant force would come and wipe me away and basically kill me or dispose of me or my brain cause im so hypocritical and fake and hypocritical cause im so fake.
i try so hard to be real but then get lost in figuring everyone else. my mind and ears roam too much.
and now that everyones realizing it it hurt memyself so much more.