new years resolution realized:
dont put ANYONE before yourself. maybe family, but above all do what will make ME happy. no more prioritizing for friends, dudes, anybody. im so sick of doing everything i can for the people that i love and then getting walked all the fuck over for no fucking reason. did i do something wrong? why is it that absolutely every single one of my friends do this to me? i guess people really do just like assholes. fuck it.
me and stephen and some other people smoked a lot of salvia last night. the first bowl i smoked was awesome. good clean high just a skewed perspective, my brain felt like it turned to mush and that felt good. the next few bowls we smoked felt good for about 20 minutes then i started feeling like shit, THEN i had to drive back to dads. i probably spent about half an hour outside with stephen next to my car with my head buried in his chest or my mouth on his neck. you shouldve just come with me. i forgot to ask you.
now im gonna take a shower and change but probably not, go get my eyebrows done and pick up stephen so we can go get lunch somewhere and actually see each other before i go to work the shift that could kill me. last night was the cutest thing ever. nikki dropped stephen off at tys while we were working and not even two hours into my shift stephen longboarded to pizza hut and walked up to the counter to kiss me on the forehead and asked me how my day was and if i could come smoke a cigarette with him. i dont believe it when you call me beautiful but it sounds good so i kiss you anyway, and sometimes i even smile.
me and stephen and some other people smoked a lot of salvia last night. the first bowl i smoked was awesome. good clean high just a skewed perspective, my brain felt like it turned to mush and that felt good. the next few bowls we smoked felt good for about 20 minutes then i started feeling like shit, THEN i had to drive back to dads. i probably spent about half an hour outside with stephen next to my car with my head buried in his chest or my mouth on his neck. you shouldve just come with me. i forgot to ask you.
now im gonna take a shower and change but probably not, go get my eyebrows done and pick up stephen so we can go get lunch somewhere and actually see each other before i go to work the shift that could kill me. last night was the cutest thing ever. nikki dropped stephen off at tys while we were working and not even two hours into my shift stephen longboarded to pizza hut and walked up to the counter to kiss me on the forehead and asked me how my day was and if i could come smoke a cigarette with him. i dont believe it when you call me beautiful but it sounds good so i kiss you anyway, and sometimes i even smile.