will i fail you now?
when you're hurt, i hurt. when you're down, i'm right there with you. i may not understand your way of thought or experience the intensity of what you're going through but i feel your pain just as if it were mine. i would love if you needed me more, it would mean so much to me to be able to be there for you during these times but yet i know that the most i can do for you is to remain in the background, to give you your time and space without attempting to lend a shoulder. i'm not as used to this rejection as i should be and often times i really do not know how to deal with you and all the sadness that is pulling me down each and every moment that you do not need me. it hurts, although pale in comparison to what you're feeling and it's even frustrating. but i'm really trying. i want to prove to you, and most importantly to myself that all my i-love-you's, i-care's and i'm-here-for-you's are more than just empty words, conditional upon circumstance. i don't want to make everything about me. i want to know that i am capable of loving you the way i say i do.