And my heart still breaks...
Holley and Chris broke up. I'm painfully afraid that Holley and Robin are going to hook up. Why I dont know? I guess I dont want anyone to have him, or I wanted to be happy in a relationship first. I dont know.
I'm really trying to move from this place. I hate the people down there, not everyone just a few, but there's so much history and past, it would be great to get away and start fresh. In texas I run the risk of running into people I dont like.
I feel so detached from everyone. Including Kristen who I have mostly forgiven for what shes done. I dont have a best friend or anything. There's nothing keeping me there, so now is the time to move. Unfortunately that takes time. Time we dont have, I have to register for classes at ACC when I return home. And I'm still waiting to hear from Tunxis (college up here).
Im coming home today, and I'm beginning to think that if I'm forced to live in texas next year that there will be only a select few people who would be there, Hannah being mainly it. Everyone else I have to many issues with.
I miss Robin, the real Robin, not this jerky robin or the robin he's "TRYING" to be. I just want to be happy again. I need to get out and do more, but all I want to do is sit at home and sulk. Cause I'm apparently 5 years old, or maybe its just that this is easier than anything else.
On the downside, my mom just got a macbook pro. Because I like mine so much, so now every five seconds its HOW DO I DO THIS, COME SHOW ME! Bleh... Maybe someday someone will wisk me away. Or maybe I'll just transfer at semester.
I'm good at playing the victim, not the activist.
EDIT: I just read over recent entries, and I'm grabbing at straws. Any guy who will have me I'm throwing myself at. I gotta stop doing that.
I'm really trying to move from this place. I hate the people down there, not everyone just a few, but there's so much history and past, it would be great to get away and start fresh. In texas I run the risk of running into people I dont like.
I feel so detached from everyone. Including Kristen who I have mostly forgiven for what shes done. I dont have a best friend or anything. There's nothing keeping me there, so now is the time to move. Unfortunately that takes time. Time we dont have, I have to register for classes at ACC when I return home. And I'm still waiting to hear from Tunxis (college up here).
Im coming home today, and I'm beginning to think that if I'm forced to live in texas next year that there will be only a select few people who would be there, Hannah being mainly it. Everyone else I have to many issues with.
I miss Robin, the real Robin, not this jerky robin or the robin he's "TRYING" to be. I just want to be happy again. I need to get out and do more, but all I want to do is sit at home and sulk. Cause I'm apparently 5 years old, or maybe its just that this is easier than anything else.
On the downside, my mom just got a macbook pro. Because I like mine so much, so now every five seconds its HOW DO I DO THIS, COME SHOW ME! Bleh... Maybe someday someone will wisk me away. Or maybe I'll just transfer at semester.
I'm good at playing the victim, not the activist.
EDIT: I just read over recent entries, and I'm grabbing at straws. Any guy who will have me I'm throwing myself at. I gotta stop doing that.