Bleh.

[_give_in]

So people are getting really annoyed with me lately for being so negative. And I'm really sorry. I know I've been pretty much non-stop negative since I got back here in August. Some things happened that were beyond my control, and other things happened that I should have/could have controlled. And I'm trying to fix everything up but it's not easy, so cut me some slack. But really, take my word for it when I say that I've been trying to deal with pretty much everything under the sun since August 18th. Staff issues, resident issues, friend issues, family issues, drugs, alcohol, death, life, classes, grad school, grades, jobs, sickness, you get the point. I'm not saying that my life is any harder (or easier) than anyone else's. I'm just saying that I'm dealing with it the best that I can and I really appreciate the people who have been there in one way or another (Allison comes to mind first and I completely acknowledge that I owe her my life in some shape, way, or form...but there are a few other people as well and I really appreciate them), including the people who will just take "no" for an answer, as small of a thing as that seems.

So just...I don't know...if you're getting annoyed with me lately, just give me space if necessary...don't expect a 180-degree turnaround that quickly. I'm hoping that stuff will all get back into place pretty soon and everything will be good but some things are a lot harder to fix than others.

I'm not the happiest person but I'm dealing and I'm managing to have a relatively good time every so often, and sometimes that's the best you can do.