im the kinda kid that cant let go of anything
am i just somebody you brought closer to take someone elses place?
i swear ill know your face in the crowd...
and ill hear your voice so loud.. when your whispering
hey unfaithful; i will teach you to be stronger.. hey un graceful i will teach you to forgive one another......hey unloving... i will love you.
you wouldnt know a good thing if it came up and slit your throat......
you know what......... ive heard it before but when i heard it in hitch.. it sparked something in my head.. and it made me think about it since then..
" life isnt about the number of breaths we take.. but the moments that take our breath away"
-- im gonna start living by that. because i never did before. i always based my happiness on other people.and i always ran out to make other people happy. instead i never really just stopped and let things happen. i never got to feel the wonder of a surprise romance.. i never got to get the butterflies when you are excited to just catch a glance from somebody. because i was always so busy trying to make them glance . i never got the complete amazement at having a friendship that just comes fully natural. as if you two were just drawn to each other. except once. but instead i went on trying to make everyone else happy that i lost that. so i vow from now on.. to live like the quote says. and just enjoy life. im going to STOP trying my absolute hardest to be there for a few certain friends because i know they dont need me and all's they want is someone else there for them. instead im gonna let them come to me.. im gonna stop trying to please everyone to the extent of losing friendships.. im gonna stop letting so much build up inside me before i show emotion..
but im not going to do one thing..
and thats stop having fun. because from now on, im enjoying the rest of the way. because my life has been way over dramatized over people that dont even appreciate everything i do for them.
as much as i want to personally walk up to them everyday and just say fuck you. learn to appreciate me. i suck it up every single day. and still try and be there for them . but not anymore.
hmm. i smell a whole new person coming along
dont get me wrong people. im still gonna be just as caring. but instead towards the people that deserve it and the ones ive been neglecting for a long time worrying so much over people that dont give two shits about me.. now its time to get my priorities straight.
starting with a long overdue hang outs with kevin tonight. :)
k well im gonna go get ready.
latterrr
" love is all around you "
im out to find it!