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Today sucked. My family started arguing with me about me using their Gas in the cars. It gave me a headache, and then my family was being extra rude to me at home town buffet, and so I was sitting on the bench outside wal-mart just crying. Everyone kept asking me what was wrong, but I just sat there crying. Yeah.. i said I was done crying, but shit there I was this afternoon crying. Why does everything happen all at once? Why does everything start coming at me like bullets and im sitting here getting shot all over my body. I swear one day i'm gonna get that bullet that puts me to death. I don't feel like exsisting anymore. But i have to, I have to stay on my grind, doing what i do because I wanna survive, I wanna exsist. to prove to everyone that I can make it. I can take what life is throwing at me now. And I think I can make it, I feel drained. My back REALLY hurts, I have to go to the doctors tomorrow, and it's bad enough my mind and heart already hurt I don't even know.. and now I really don't have anyone to talk to about my problems, or to make them all better it's difficult, but not impossible. I just write, draw, and live. I never knew that.. it would be harder than I thought. I thought this would be easy, but it's not.
D: woo.. tel her i love her
my whole attitude on this day has changed.. i miss the fuc outta him <3. goodnight.
D: woo.. tel her i love her
my whole attitude on this day has changed.. i miss the fuc outta him <3. goodnight.