I completely understand this. Though I've never been a waif like weight I struggle with how I see myself everyday. I got to a point in my life where I realized I was overweight and I just wouldn't settle for that anymore. I began excercising and eating less, etc and I lost so far around 60 pounds. Though still not in shape I am much smaller than I was, and last night when I went out I was asked a question that I had been asked before at my heaviest that I didn't think could happen now. At the checkout line in Target I was asked "when are you due?" and I wanted to break down and cry right there. I refused to speak to the cashier much after that question, it hurt. I went home and looked in the mirror first thing. I tried to rationalize with myself, how could this happen, everyones been saying you look so much better. Sure my stomach isn't totally flat but it also wasnt a pregnant belly by any means. But her stupid comment put so much doubt in my mind. Which it shouldnt be able to ya know? I should be confident enough to say ok, the 40 something year old cashier at Target who was much much heavier than me obviously is stupid and bitchy. It's so hard though. I really hope that you can find that place again, and that I can as well. And then we can hang out and be ninjas.
the first thing dan ever told me about you was: "she is the coolest girl...ever."
now, dan doesn't say things like that on a regular basis... he does not dish out cool points to people just like that...
and when i saw your picture i thought you were beautiful... reeeeeeeeeeeally beautiful.
beauty and cool points...rare and awesome.
i let what people say to me get to me too much... i can totally relate... but rest assured, the general populace is ignorant... so, you shouldn't listen to them. easier said than done, i know... i should listen to my own advice some time...
but, try to think positive... i'll be searching for the comfort of being myself... and you can too...
and, YES, we can hang out and be ninjas... awesome ninjas... tampon ninjas of love. booyah.
in short, you are awesomeness and there's no one else like you. <3 no more crying... let's fight. :]
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"she is the coolest girl...ever."
now, dan doesn't say things like that on a regular basis...
he does not dish out cool points to people just like that...
and when i saw your picture i thought you were beautiful...
reeeeeeeeeeeally beautiful.
beauty and cool points...rare and awesome.
i let what people say to me get to me too much...
i can totally relate...
but rest assured, the general populace is ignorant...
so, you shouldn't listen to them.
easier said than done, i know...
i should listen to my own advice some time...
but, try to think positive...
i'll be searching for the comfort of being myself...
and you can too...
and, YES, we can hang out and be ninjas...
awesome ninjas...
tampon ninjas of love.
booyah.
in short, you are awesomeness and there's no one else like you. <3
no more crying...
let's fight. :]
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*cracks up laughing*
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