Apr 26, 2004 17:42
So I got to thinking last night in the shower (my usual hardcore thinking spot) and I just can't decide if I believe in FATE or not. I always considered myself a believer, but when I got to thinking, I just couldn't decide.
To me, fate is considering every aspect of your life to be predetermined and unavoidable; hence the cliche, "Everything happens for a reason". I think that believing in fate is a nice crutch to help make things easier, but is it really true??? Do I actually buy into the fact that I have absolutely no control over the events that take place in MY life?! How can that be??? But then again, what do I know? If fate really is real, which it might very well be, then I have to ask the question:'' Why has there been so many harsh realities brought into my life?'' In the past few years, I have found myself resorting to the pathetic 'Why me's' far more than I would have ever imagined. I know that the pain that I have endured HAS made me stronger, which I use much to my advantage, but it has also put me at a diadvantage in so many other ways (but that's a whole different story). Back to the subject, I do think that I believe in fate, whether or not that is just some sort of coping mechanismn, I don't know. But I think that by living my life believing in fate will help me to learn from what unfolds and reassure me that there is some sort of meaning behind it all.
What do you think? Do you believe?