(no subject)
its so odd how one person can change your complete perspective on life. yes, I'm talking about my girlfriend, so shutup. I know she's all I really write about, but besides her and a couple of my closest friends, she's all I got. for the past four or five years prior to our relationship, all my previous ones were one of two situations. either I would be all about a girl, and once I finally got her, I would completely lose interest. or I would be all about a girl and she would just dick me over after wasting time that I thought would lead to something. like one girl whom I had seen for a good four months, and finally upon me asking 'what's our deal?' being told she doesn't want a boyfriend. I can't hold grudges though. I've been cheated on so many times, that once I got into a girl, my shield was so high I gave up. I couldn't deal with the feeling of betrayal anymore. I have and never will cheat on a girlfriend. its something I stand behind, and I believe loyalty is the most important thing in a relationship.
don't get me wrong, I'm no saint. I've done my fair share of hurting people in the process. one of which I could probably never forgive myself for, because she was nothing but good to me. and if you read this and you know its you, I am still, to this day, so sorry. I hurt her time and time again. I don't know what happened, but the thought of commitment just freaked me out. its not like I was like 'I just want to play the field' shit. I just couldn't commit.
but then on may 23rd, 2008 my life changed. a very drunken night, and probably the worst first impression I could've ever made. justin had just began talking to ali, and I met her. I still remember my jaw dropping. she was so beautiful I couldn't even believe it. and I acted like such an idiot (thanks to drinking 20+ beers throughout the day) but I told ali to hook us up. cheesy, and she said everyone asks her that. even kaelin told me he was trying to get her. but it didn't really stop me. and after a few times hanging out, the spark caught, and everything changed. I was kind of sad to see ali and justins relationship go the way it did, but as theirs did, ours flourished. and I can't thank ali enough for making it happen. I've never been one to be cocky or anything, but I really truely think I have to have some serious charm to get her.
so we continued hanging out, and it all came to july 3rd, in the middle of a warehouse in northeast philadelphia, on a muggy summer night. I finally got the courage to kiss her (granted I drank a bookbags worth of beer) and since that night, I've never been the same. a few sleepovers, a trip to the beach, countless shows, it was all perfect.
and now I'm convinced that I have met the one girl I've truely been waiting for this whole time. I've sworn off girls a million times, and everyone always said 'don't worry, just wait and you'll meet the one' and I have. sure, we hit a couple rough patches, a few pointless fights, but that's just life. what it really boils down to is when you both cool off and just tell each other I'm sorry and I love you. fighting is human nature. not one relationship is 100% perfect, but I really feel like ours is pretty damn close. I love this girl more than anything in the entire world, and I'm the luckiest boy to be able to call her my own.
I'm semi drunk, and pretty emotional right now. I kind of just wanted to write about her. she's all I think about. 24/7.
that's all, I guess.
don't get me wrong, I'm no saint. I've done my fair share of hurting people in the process. one of which I could probably never forgive myself for, because she was nothing but good to me. and if you read this and you know its you, I am still, to this day, so sorry. I hurt her time and time again. I don't know what happened, but the thought of commitment just freaked me out. its not like I was like 'I just want to play the field' shit. I just couldn't commit.
but then on may 23rd, 2008 my life changed. a very drunken night, and probably the worst first impression I could've ever made. justin had just began talking to ali, and I met her. I still remember my jaw dropping. she was so beautiful I couldn't even believe it. and I acted like such an idiot (thanks to drinking 20+ beers throughout the day) but I told ali to hook us up. cheesy, and she said everyone asks her that. even kaelin told me he was trying to get her. but it didn't really stop me. and after a few times hanging out, the spark caught, and everything changed. I was kind of sad to see ali and justins relationship go the way it did, but as theirs did, ours flourished. and I can't thank ali enough for making it happen. I've never been one to be cocky or anything, but I really truely think I have to have some serious charm to get her.
so we continued hanging out, and it all came to july 3rd, in the middle of a warehouse in northeast philadelphia, on a muggy summer night. I finally got the courage to kiss her (granted I drank a bookbags worth of beer) and since that night, I've never been the same. a few sleepovers, a trip to the beach, countless shows, it was all perfect.
and now I'm convinced that I have met the one girl I've truely been waiting for this whole time. I've sworn off girls a million times, and everyone always said 'don't worry, just wait and you'll meet the one' and I have. sure, we hit a couple rough patches, a few pointless fights, but that's just life. what it really boils down to is when you both cool off and just tell each other I'm sorry and I love you. fighting is human nature. not one relationship is 100% perfect, but I really feel like ours is pretty damn close. I love this girl more than anything in the entire world, and I'm the luckiest boy to be able to call her my own.
I'm semi drunk, and pretty emotional right now. I kind of just wanted to write about her. she's all I think about. 24/7.
that's all, I guess.