I'm not going to post here anymore...

[_genevieve_]

half the shit that's said around here is complete bullshit anyways - but that's life I guess - the rest of the time people post stuff here intentionally to hurt others if they're mad at them for something - that's not right either - it's all bs anyways and I'm just pretty sick of all of it - I'm not a bad person and if people want to write me off and think I'm some horrible bitch and talk about me like I'm some horrible bitch, then fine - I can't stop them ::shrugs:: but contrary to the opinion of some, I don't do things to intentionally hurt other people, especially my friends - if I am aware that something is a problem or that someone is hurting, then I'll go way out of my way to help or to fix things if it's in my power - so yeah, people can believe that if they want, they're going to think whatever they want to anyways reguardless of what I may or may not say or do

I'm also sick of being pulled in two opposite directions - you don't want to be with me and tell me to get over you and move on - I hold on longer than most, but then finally let go after being told so many times in both nice ways and really mean ways and so I start to move on and then that's not good either - it seems like you just want to hate me either way, but you claim to love me and couldn't imagine your life without me - well which is it? because I'm the same person now as I've always been - I love you and you mean the world to me and that's never stopped or changed even for a second - someone else is mad at me as well, and that could also have been different if I had known exactly how they were being effected - I didn't know - that's no lie, it's just fact - but now everything's all messed up, of course I'm not suprised - this is socali after all - no drama but the biggest drama is accepted around here

this is a fact - greg, you mean the world to me and I love you with all my heart - I'm sorry you're upset with me and I hope you don't really want to hate me and kick me out of your life because like I've said a dozen times over, I love you and would move heaven and earth for you if it would help to make you happy - when you're upset with me about something, just talk to me about it because I honestly can't imagine my life without you in it - I don't totally understand your reason for being upset with me, but that's ok - I know I get upset with you about things that you don't understand as well - but when I do it doesn't make me just stop caring about you and I would hope that you won't just stop caring about me