Was his demise so carefully constructed?
Hoping for the best just hoping nothing happens
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me
I know you well enough to know you never loved me
why can't i feel anything for anyone other than you
And all of this was all your fault
And all of this
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
for this simple reason, I
just need to keep you in mind
as something larger than life
she'll destroy us all before she's through
and find a way to blame somebody else
And thats the question.. Why can't i feel anything for anyone other than you? It makes no sense. I've been thinking about all of this on my sleepless nights. I've thought of it all till oblivion sets in. andim lost beyond comprehension. But.. its only you. That's what I keep telling myself. Why should I bother with the likes of you, just to turn out the way I always do. Everytime you cut those ties we make with eachother I have to reinvent myself. So these feelings better pass, and it's not like I have talk to you in a while. So this really shouldn't be so hard.
Then there are the others. The others that confuse and upset me. They are almost like you. Well.. one is just like you. And it scares me sometimes how much u 2 are alike. But, you'll never know, because you just don't care. Which I am coming to terms with. And the other one is just damn right confusing. I don't know what to think there, and I really shouldn't care anymore. And I believe I won't
I Don't Care Anymore.
Well enough of that confusing shit. Me.. I'm doing pretty ok. Not great, but not as bad as I was. I'm just really worried about school and all this stuff and I never worry about shizne like that. And I'm all like blah cuz of school. So I aplogize if I don't seem very lively. I haven't slept in a while lol. I've just been sitting up every night thinking while I'm drifting in homework. The pressure I have one me actually makes me work much better. It's weird. But hey as long as I get the work done, it'll be fine. I really just need to chill. I think thats what we all need. We all just need to sit back relax and imble everything. Soak all these moments in. Because we need to celebrate these moments, because these moments they are our lives.
Like yesterday I hungout with some ppl I thought I'd never hang out with, and it was so much fun, except the whole part of me and my friend getting hurt lol, but it was fun as hell.
I've really reached a point in my exsistance where I can make peace with everything. Because I will let nothing ruin my serenity that I worked so hard for. There are things in my mind that make me uneasy sometimes, but I can repress them and move on. Because isn't that the essence of life? Moving On. That's what we do, we all just move on. Whether it be love, happiness, depression, life, or death, we all move on. With this mentality I have myself set into I think that I will be a happier person. As it is right now I just am. I'm not sad, not happy. I'm just myself. Maybe that's a good thing to be sometimes. I really don't know, but I'm ready for whatever comes next. I have a feeling something really big is goin to happen to me this summer. Whether it be bad ot good I really don't know. And for those of you who know me, it one of those weird feelings I get when I know for certain something is gunna happen. I hope it's good, but like my fac saying goes w.e happens, happens.
For my Dorks: I love you guys. This summer is gunna rock. You guys rock my socks. major <333333333
Life is true and yet so fake
Makes my heart want to break
A fakr tear caresses my morbid expression
You try to comfort me, to ease the tension
Confusing signs infuse a mind
Mistakes are arn't real, they're a fold in time
I must celebrate. I shouldn't get in too deep
But your love penitrates, and it seeps
I'm takin the gun out of your hand to putting it in mine
It's my turn to run to the sun, time to shine
The rays they soak me up, and I'm lost
Foever lost in my realm of holocaust
You try to help way too late
The feelings I felt, you couldn't relate
Let it go, in good time you'll get it all
As it is now let me fall
I waited for tomorrow, but today never came
So bow your head down in pure shame
You took the sun and my light away
But as you see you couldn't make me stay
A wild heart cannot stay caged
To think to itself and build in rage
I left thought of you in that place
But it seems they caught up in my race
But I'm a fool, all burned in love's museum
To be left alone is like to be damned
So take your treason and bury it deep
You won't take me, my soul is mine to keep
You got me too many time before
This time I won't let you open the sore...
<3
A thousand clever lines unread on clever napkins
I will never ask if you don't ever tell me
I know you well enough to know you never loved me
why can't i feel anything for anyone other than you
And all of this was all your fault
And all of this
I stay wrecked and jealous for this,
for this simple reason, I
just need to keep you in mind
as something larger than life
she'll destroy us all before she's through
and find a way to blame somebody else
And thats the question.. Why can't i feel anything for anyone other than you? It makes no sense. I've been thinking about all of this on my sleepless nights. I've thought of it all till oblivion sets in. andim lost beyond comprehension. But.. its only you. That's what I keep telling myself. Why should I bother with the likes of you, just to turn out the way I always do. Everytime you cut those ties we make with eachother I have to reinvent myself. So these feelings better pass, and it's not like I have talk to you in a while. So this really shouldn't be so hard.
Then there are the others. The others that confuse and upset me. They are almost like you. Well.. one is just like you. And it scares me sometimes how much u 2 are alike. But, you'll never know, because you just don't care. Which I am coming to terms with. And the other one is just damn right confusing. I don't know what to think there, and I really shouldn't care anymore. And I believe I won't
I Don't Care Anymore.
Well enough of that confusing shit. Me.. I'm doing pretty ok. Not great, but not as bad as I was. I'm just really worried about school and all this stuff and I never worry about shizne like that. And I'm all like blah cuz of school. So I aplogize if I don't seem very lively. I haven't slept in a while lol. I've just been sitting up every night thinking while I'm drifting in homework. The pressure I have one me actually makes me work much better. It's weird. But hey as long as I get the work done, it'll be fine. I really just need to chill. I think thats what we all need. We all just need to sit back relax and imble everything. Soak all these moments in. Because we need to celebrate these moments, because these moments they are our lives.
Like yesterday I hungout with some ppl I thought I'd never hang out with, and it was so much fun, except the whole part of me and my friend getting hurt lol, but it was fun as hell.
I've really reached a point in my exsistance where I can make peace with everything. Because I will let nothing ruin my serenity that I worked so hard for. There are things in my mind that make me uneasy sometimes, but I can repress them and move on. Because isn't that the essence of life? Moving On. That's what we do, we all just move on. Whether it be love, happiness, depression, life, or death, we all move on. With this mentality I have myself set into I think that I will be a happier person. As it is right now I just am. I'm not sad, not happy. I'm just myself. Maybe that's a good thing to be sometimes. I really don't know, but I'm ready for whatever comes next. I have a feeling something really big is goin to happen to me this summer. Whether it be bad ot good I really don't know. And for those of you who know me, it one of those weird feelings I get when I know for certain something is gunna happen. I hope it's good, but like my fac saying goes w.e happens, happens.
For my Dorks: I love you guys. This summer is gunna rock. You guys rock my socks. major <333333333
Life is true and yet so fake
Makes my heart want to break
A fakr tear caresses my morbid expression
You try to comfort me, to ease the tension
Confusing signs infuse a mind
Mistakes are arn't real, they're a fold in time
I must celebrate. I shouldn't get in too deep
But your love penitrates, and it seeps
I'm takin the gun out of your hand to putting it in mine
It's my turn to run to the sun, time to shine
The rays they soak me up, and I'm lost
Foever lost in my realm of holocaust
You try to help way too late
The feelings I felt, you couldn't relate
Let it go, in good time you'll get it all
As it is now let me fall
I waited for tomorrow, but today never came
So bow your head down in pure shame
You took the sun and my light away
But as you see you couldn't make me stay
A wild heart cannot stay caged
To think to itself and build in rage
I left thought of you in that place
But it seems they caught up in my race
But I'm a fool, all burned in love's museum
To be left alone is like to be damned
So take your treason and bury it deep
You won't take me, my soul is mine to keep
You got me too many time before
This time I won't let you open the sore...
<3