CAMP ..
so there's only a week left of summer then school starts. im only looking forward to the first day. i need to work on my summer assignments for ap euro &h chem. rawr.
i went camping at san diego with my church youth group. i had an awesome time. friday night was the best cause we all couldnt go to sleep so we would all sneak in inside the girls/boys tents. how cute. no one really went to sleep the whole night. saturday morning, everone was so tired for the sessions. we jst cldnt wait til it was our free time so that we can go to the beach. &so we went -really fun. i loved it. then i had a talk with a friend &it was really nice. im glad things worked out for her &i cause i cldnt stand it anymore esp. when its someone from church. we're all supposed to be family &what not. so i needed a talk with her &now we're friends ;]. we had another session that night &we cldnt wait til that was over so we can have a bonfire. after the bonfire, we walked to the beach &washed the fireworks then walked to the park. it was sweet. saturday night was weird though. sigh. sunday morning, everyone packed. i was frustrated cause i hate it when people jst sit around ¬ do anything when everyone else is cleaning. rawr. i didnt want to leave. hmph, but i had so much fun. i loved it. thanks for coming with me cynthia. i love you.
i knew about your situation. i knew you were going to leave one day. i knew it all but it didnt affect me til recently. why? why do you have to leave now? when we've gotten so close. i cried that one night while talking to you on the phone cause thats when it hit me. now i cant stop crying jst by being near you, talking to you &jst seeing you. what you told me on saturday night changed everything. im sorry if i acted weird around you the day after. im sorry if i ignored you &tried to get away from you the whole day even though knowing that this weekend was probably going to be the last time i'll ever see you. it makes me cry even thinking about this &writing about it. i cant do it anymore but i have to express my feelings somehow so that i wont isolate myself from you. i have to let it all out. i wish i didnt have to act like that day. i wish i spent every second of it with you. you have become a very important person to my life with that little time since we've known each other. you know wasup with my life &i know it all with yours. we definitely have bonded &made things work out. i jst wish you didnt have to go but we all know that that wont happen. you have warned me so many times not to worry about you cause in the end, ill just get hurt. but how can i not? when we created this awesome friendship that no one ever knew that it was a real close friendship. i took the risk of being friends with you til the end even though i know how the outcome of it would be cause it would all jst be worth it. sometimes i wish i wasnt your friend at all ,how i didnt have to be so close with you &how i wish i didnt know anything about it but thats so selfish of me to do &thats the least thing you need -a selfish friend. i know you tried pushing me away by telling me to not get close with you ¬ care for you but i know that you were jst going to isolate yourself from everyone so that when you leave, no one would care. but everyone is going to care, everyone is going to be sad ¬ only for awhile but for a long time. you not only meant alot to me but to everyone. i know this is so emo but it hurts. i need you to be one of my homeeeys to get through my life. i need you righ` here next to me. i need you. you really have touched my heart &i hope i have done the same. i wont ever forget about you. i know you think ill cry &think about you jst for awhile &then ill forget about you. its not going to be like that &i promise you that. you will truly forever be in my mind heart &memory. i wont ever forget about you. please dont forget about me. i jst hope thursday goes real well for you. goodluck my shweet bird<3
sigh ;[
i went camping at san diego with my church youth group. i had an awesome time. friday night was the best cause we all couldnt go to sleep so we would all sneak in inside the girls/boys tents. how cute. no one really went to sleep the whole night. saturday morning, everone was so tired for the sessions. we jst cldnt wait til it was our free time so that we can go to the beach. &so we went -really fun. i loved it. then i had a talk with a friend &it was really nice. im glad things worked out for her &i cause i cldnt stand it anymore esp. when its someone from church. we're all supposed to be family &what not. so i needed a talk with her &now we're friends ;]. we had another session that night &we cldnt wait til that was over so we can have a bonfire. after the bonfire, we walked to the beach &washed the fireworks then walked to the park. it was sweet. saturday night was weird though. sigh. sunday morning, everyone packed. i was frustrated cause i hate it when people jst sit around ¬ do anything when everyone else is cleaning. rawr. i didnt want to leave. hmph, but i had so much fun. i loved it. thanks for coming with me cynthia. i love you.
i knew about your situation. i knew you were going to leave one day. i knew it all but it didnt affect me til recently. why? why do you have to leave now? when we've gotten so close. i cried that one night while talking to you on the phone cause thats when it hit me. now i cant stop crying jst by being near you, talking to you &jst seeing you. what you told me on saturday night changed everything. im sorry if i acted weird around you the day after. im sorry if i ignored you &tried to get away from you the whole day even though knowing that this weekend was probably going to be the last time i'll ever see you. it makes me cry even thinking about this &writing about it. i cant do it anymore but i have to express my feelings somehow so that i wont isolate myself from you. i have to let it all out. i wish i didnt have to act like that day. i wish i spent every second of it with you. you have become a very important person to my life with that little time since we've known each other. you know wasup with my life &i know it all with yours. we definitely have bonded &made things work out. i jst wish you didnt have to go but we all know that that wont happen. you have warned me so many times not to worry about you cause in the end, ill just get hurt. but how can i not? when we created this awesome friendship that no one ever knew that it was a real close friendship. i took the risk of being friends with you til the end even though i know how the outcome of it would be cause it would all jst be worth it. sometimes i wish i wasnt your friend at all ,how i didnt have to be so close with you &how i wish i didnt know anything about it but thats so selfish of me to do &thats the least thing you need -a selfish friend. i know you tried pushing me away by telling me to not get close with you ¬ care for you but i know that you were jst going to isolate yourself from everyone so that when you leave, no one would care. but everyone is going to care, everyone is going to be sad ¬ only for awhile but for a long time. you not only meant alot to me but to everyone. i know this is so emo but it hurts. i need you to be one of my homeeeys to get through my life. i need you righ` here next to me. i need you. you really have touched my heart &i hope i have done the same. i wont ever forget about you. i know you think ill cry &think about you jst for awhile &then ill forget about you. its not going to be like that &i promise you that. you will truly forever be in my mind heart &memory. i wont ever forget about you. please dont forget about me. i jst hope thursday goes real well for you. goodluck my shweet bird<3
sigh ;[