god i still smell like him *cream*
well today was ok i geuss...
i make the worse mistake ever...
calling Ian (my ex)
well...
i called him cuz i wanted to smoke..
and he jus happen to have weed
so me and emily went over to his house..
and i thought he was guna be like a complete asshole
cuz he was on the phone when i called him
but he was liek really nice for some reason
i think it was just because he was high...
and at first i jus thought he was being nice cuz emily was there...
and then emily went home and he was walking me home
and he was like flirtin with me hardcore
lol
and i was like stop stop and hes like ok im drawin the line here..
and we were wlakin and we started to pass this park..
and i wa slike oh that spider thing is so much fun to play on!
and hes like well lets play on it
and he like picked me up and carried me to it..
i was like no!
then we jsu sat there talking
and he like started tickling me and kinda cornered me
and like wrapped his arm around me and jus held me
and i felt so liek i duno
like i was home...
and he started like rubbin my back and shit
and i was jus like omg...
and he smelled so good!
haha i was liek you smell really good... lol
and then i had to stop... becuz i didnt want it to happen
so i wa slike ian, stop...
and he did...
but omg i wanted him sooo bad
like the whole night i was jus liek omg why do i like him???
hes sooo much different..
hes a stoner like hes not all GQ male and shit anymore...
hes jus liek the guys i hang out with...
jus a complete sit at home stoner
he lost the blonde hair...
deosnt take care of it...
and i think its fuckin hott as hell!
he looks normal!
and hes not an asshole all the time liek he was before..
i mean we were sittin there when i had first got there
and he was makin his little jokes and shit
and i was like ur an asshole...
and emilys liek dood you can tell hes just jokin jus chill..
and i was like maybe i do need to chill
im jus so used to him being a dick...
i duno
and he deosnt drink anymore!
you can kinda tell
hes soo much more of a stoner now than a drunk
and ya know wat
i feel bad saying this
but i kinda like him...
ive always liked him!
i was just teaching myself to be a stronger women
by walking away form the situation...
but omg somethin about him...
it jus liek jason
liek i duno wat it is about him
jus makes me love him so much
like i love him like somethin i own thats really important to me
that i dont want anybody else to touch
but thats kinda how i feel about Ian...
i mean somebody give me sign what is this???
id so be willing to get with him
but jason!
not the fact jason dont liek him
its just i kinda want jason right now...
i mean ive always wanted jason
but i mean ive been thinking about our relationship
and im kinda sick of this waiting shit...
like wtf? you get pissed cuz im with other guys
but you want me to wait for you to wana be with you?
and i can never tell what he wants
and he never talks to me about it...
thats i wana catch him in person..
and talk to him then hahaha lol
oh god i duno what to do..
im in love with jason!
but i kinda want ian
and i dont even know if jason wants me...
i mean a relationship (i know he wanst me lol)
well i figure that out soon enough
till then i dont want him to know about ian...
so dont tell him
if you knwo him lol
well mayeb i should sleep on it
fuck
i hate when shit like this happens!
LockedRastaLuV: :-**MuaH!*
Trip Like Me xXx: ditto lol
thought that was funny
i make the worse mistake ever...
calling Ian (my ex)
well...
i called him cuz i wanted to smoke..
and he jus happen to have weed
so me and emily went over to his house..
and i thought he was guna be like a complete asshole
cuz he was on the phone when i called him
but he was liek really nice for some reason
i think it was just because he was high...
and at first i jus thought he was being nice cuz emily was there...
and then emily went home and he was walking me home
and he was like flirtin with me hardcore
lol
and i was like stop stop and hes like ok im drawin the line here..
and we were wlakin and we started to pass this park..
and i wa slike oh that spider thing is so much fun to play on!
and hes like well lets play on it
and he like picked me up and carried me to it..
i was like no!
then we jsu sat there talking
and he like started tickling me and kinda cornered me
and like wrapped his arm around me and jus held me
and i felt so liek i duno
like i was home...
and he started like rubbin my back and shit
and i was jus like omg...
and he smelled so good!
haha i was liek you smell really good... lol
and then i had to stop... becuz i didnt want it to happen
so i wa slike ian, stop...
and he did...
but omg i wanted him sooo bad
like the whole night i was jus liek omg why do i like him???
hes sooo much different..
hes a stoner like hes not all GQ male and shit anymore...
hes jus liek the guys i hang out with...
jus a complete sit at home stoner
he lost the blonde hair...
deosnt take care of it...
and i think its fuckin hott as hell!
he looks normal!
and hes not an asshole all the time liek he was before..
i mean we were sittin there when i had first got there
and he was makin his little jokes and shit
and i was like ur an asshole...
and emilys liek dood you can tell hes just jokin jus chill..
and i was like maybe i do need to chill
im jus so used to him being a dick...
i duno
and he deosnt drink anymore!
you can kinda tell
hes soo much more of a stoner now than a drunk
and ya know wat
i feel bad saying this
but i kinda like him...
ive always liked him!
i was just teaching myself to be a stronger women
by walking away form the situation...
but omg somethin about him...
it jus liek jason
liek i duno wat it is about him
jus makes me love him so much
like i love him like somethin i own thats really important to me
that i dont want anybody else to touch
but thats kinda how i feel about Ian...
i mean somebody give me sign what is this???
id so be willing to get with him
but jason!
not the fact jason dont liek him
its just i kinda want jason right now...
i mean ive always wanted jason
but i mean ive been thinking about our relationship
and im kinda sick of this waiting shit...
like wtf? you get pissed cuz im with other guys
but you want me to wait for you to wana be with you?
and i can never tell what he wants
and he never talks to me about it...
thats i wana catch him in person..
and talk to him then hahaha lol
oh god i duno what to do..
im in love with jason!
but i kinda want ian
and i dont even know if jason wants me...
i mean a relationship (i know he wanst me lol)
well i figure that out soon enough
till then i dont want him to know about ian...
so dont tell him
if you knwo him lol
well mayeb i should sleep on it
fuck
i hate when shit like this happens!
LockedRastaLuV: :-**MuaH!*
Trip Like Me xXx: ditto lol
thought that was funny