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Right, i'm knackered.
Why am i so stupid?
Why do i get drunk?
Why do i put other people first?
Why do i get so upset?
Why do i still like him?
I'm stupid cause that's the way i am.
I get drunk cause i enjoy it.
I put other people first + get upset cause that's the way i am.
I'm not even sure whether i like him, it's always a mixture of emotions with him, depends what mood he's in to whether he likes me or not. Stupid dream last night felt so real, i hated it!
Stupid weekend. Friday there was a gig. Got home from school + got ready. Train to Liverpool no problem. Next train i was drinking on + an old drunk man said he was going to rob a bank + then he hit me! he actually hit me with his umberella. The said he had a knife with him + kept looking at me. Scary shit.
Got there + threw up like usual. Then i was ok so i finished my alcohol off + went to the gig. No problem apart from i supposedly smacked into Jacob in my drunkness + he cornered me + kept asking why i did it + assumed i was jealous cause he was with Linzi. Part of me in my drunkness was but the other part of me didn't give a shit cause i'd spoke to Amy + she'd made me see sense. Then we realised we had to go to get the train so we were all running + realised Hana had gone, so being drunk i ran back to the gig to get her. I got there, no Hana just her bag. Kath phoned + told me that the trains gone and Hana got on it with them. So i paniced in my sehr drunkness + Tom said i can stay at his cause he's going Jacobs + i could have his bed. So i ended up staying at Vinnys.
Yesterday i went Manchester + all day i got nasty looks + people saying 'Why did you stay at Vinnys?' 'Do you still love him?' + people wouldn't leave me alone + Emily was giving me nasty looks, part of me understands but the other part doesn't cause she has no reason to be paranoid. Me + Vinny are over.. finished about 4 months ago! I don't even hug him anymore cause i don't want to upset her or anything. He's one of my best friends for fucks sake! I didn't go back to Lea Green cause i didn't want to see Jacob after he pushed me round + i didn't want to have to go through people questioning me + so on. So i came home + had a chippy tea. Yum!
Why am i so stupid?
Why do i get drunk?
Why do i put other people first?
Why do i get so upset?
Why do i still like him?
I'm stupid cause that's the way i am.
I get drunk cause i enjoy it.
I put other people first + get upset cause that's the way i am.
I'm not even sure whether i like him, it's always a mixture of emotions with him, depends what mood he's in to whether he likes me or not. Stupid dream last night felt so real, i hated it!
Stupid weekend. Friday there was a gig. Got home from school + got ready. Train to Liverpool no problem. Next train i was drinking on + an old drunk man said he was going to rob a bank + then he hit me! he actually hit me with his umberella. The said he had a knife with him + kept looking at me. Scary shit.
Got there + threw up like usual. Then i was ok so i finished my alcohol off + went to the gig. No problem apart from i supposedly smacked into Jacob in my drunkness + he cornered me + kept asking why i did it + assumed i was jealous cause he was with Linzi. Part of me in my drunkness was but the other part of me didn't give a shit cause i'd spoke to Amy + she'd made me see sense. Then we realised we had to go to get the train so we were all running + realised Hana had gone, so being drunk i ran back to the gig to get her. I got there, no Hana just her bag. Kath phoned + told me that the trains gone and Hana got on it with them. So i paniced in my sehr drunkness + Tom said i can stay at his cause he's going Jacobs + i could have his bed. So i ended up staying at Vinnys.
Yesterday i went Manchester + all day i got nasty looks + people saying 'Why did you stay at Vinnys?' 'Do you still love him?' + people wouldn't leave me alone + Emily was giving me nasty looks, part of me understands but the other part doesn't cause she has no reason to be paranoid. Me + Vinny are over.. finished about 4 months ago! I don't even hug him anymore cause i don't want to upset her or anything. He's one of my best friends for fucks sake! I didn't go back to Lea Green cause i didn't want to see Jacob after he pushed me round + i didn't want to have to go through people questioning me + so on. So i came home + had a chippy tea. Yum!