=Another routine head out east=
Don’t you hate it when you know something is wrong but you don’t know what? For a week at least I’ve felt this way. I don’t know if something bad is going to happen or if I just feel like “what’s the point?” idk...I am making myself sick over it that much I know. I just can’t help but feel that something horrible is going to occur and that I have the chance to prevent it or lessen it but I won’t be able to because I cannot figure out what is happening. I’m lacking a grasp on things. I cannot concentrate. I feel as if my world is spinning out of control or something. No that’s too harsh I just feel like I can control something that I have no control over but I don’t know what it is. I hate the feeling of unsureness it really puts a damper on any mood. I just feel so insecure and uncomfortable right now to be in my own skin and I think that’s adding to my feelings. ARGH! Why do I even get these feelings?? We all know that I get these odd feelings and then something happens like I’m a fucking psychic or something. It sucks because it’s all one huge coincidence that I get a feeling of something and then either what I was feeling occurs or something very close to it does. Ugh!! I hate when I get these negative feelings because then that usually means something negative is going to happen and that just sucks!!! Sometimes I wish I had a crystal ball that would tell me the future so in times like these when I get these horrible gut feelings it could tell me or at least allude me to what will happen and if my feelings are correct. ARGH!!! this is so frustrating! I just can’t but continually think that something bad is going to happen and that I can do something about it!!!! But I can’t worry about the world! I mean if my feeling turns out to be a bomb over Germany or something I can’t control that..that’s utterly irrational of me to think I could prevent blowing up another country. That’s why this feeling is eating at me because I don’t think it has anything to do with anything unrealistic of me..I think this feeling is going to hit close to home and that’s why I’m so irked by it. It could be something as simple as a fight between friends of mine or something totally life altering. Argh! =*(
justin you are my religious hero..I got your voice mail but I had no service (and I mean NO service..not even 1 bar..which does nothing to begin with but still!!!) because I was in bedford hills which equals no service..you are a good person for praying for him..me on the other hand am pissed that he was released with out bail after committing 2 felonies and 4 misdemeanors (which equals a total for 3 felonies because 4 misdemeanors are equivalent to 1 felony) don’t you look the American judicial system
anywho tonight was fun at the coffee house thing for mr. P’s friend..I had a gay guy hit on me..quite the experience there..lol...nah all in all I had fun..AND we found a 7/11 on the way home so I FINALLY got my slushee I am a very happy woman =)
must be out of the house by 7 tomorrow morning..still need to study and finish whiting out and resculping (is that a word??) the country
justin you are my religious hero..I got your voice mail but I had no service (and I mean NO service..not even 1 bar..which does nothing to begin with but still!!!) because I was in bedford hills which equals no service..you are a good person for praying for him..me on the other hand am pissed that he was released with out bail after committing 2 felonies and 4 misdemeanors (which equals a total for 3 felonies because 4 misdemeanors are equivalent to 1 felony) don’t you look the American judicial system
anywho tonight was fun at the coffee house thing for mr. P’s friend..I had a gay guy hit on me..quite the experience there..lol...nah all in all I had fun..AND we found a 7/11 on the way home so I FINALLY got my slushee I am a very happy woman =)
must be out of the house by 7 tomorrow morning..still need to study and finish whiting out and resculping (is that a word??) the country