so overwhelmed
things just arent going well right now. i have too much homework, my school sucks, people at my school have friends there and i don't. the only nice girl is ilyssa, but she has other friends. i don't even have that many friends out of school. rachel, michelle, allie, ummmmmmmmm... casey, annie, caeli, angie, bri, sarah. sarah made new friends though. maybe i should go to mitty. it gets you friends, i hear.
whatever, i just hate being the loser wherever i go. excuse me while i do 2 months worth of french, geometry, physics, lit, hebrew, and jewish text.
i thought kehillah would be really cool, like better than fhs. every fucking night i wish i was back at fremont, with dance team and choir that kicked ass, and maybe 1 or 2 friends. every night i can successfully cry myself to sleep with all the things wrong in my life. i just want to get out of high school with the losers who actually like it and get into university, you know? where i can be in new york and have a dorm mate and live at nyu and i'll have a side job on broadway.... in my dreams. if i don't get all a's they won't look at me for much, i dont have time to even think about auditions with all this school stuff.
i can't wait till i go back to dance tomorrow. that means i have to survive school first, but maybe if i apologize to the pe teacher for cutting pe to do my physics that i didn't do working on my english essay, she'll understand. and give me a c or higher.
i hate my life :( dance and bbg are the only things that keep me sane, but theyre not supposed to be priorities.
even my rabbit hates me, ok? she used to be really sweet and now she's scared of me. and my guinea pig is still gone, which sucks and i won't get over. i just have issues...
whatever, i just hate being the loser wherever i go. excuse me while i do 2 months worth of french, geometry, physics, lit, hebrew, and jewish text.
i thought kehillah would be really cool, like better than fhs. every fucking night i wish i was back at fremont, with dance team and choir that kicked ass, and maybe 1 or 2 friends. every night i can successfully cry myself to sleep with all the things wrong in my life. i just want to get out of high school with the losers who actually like it and get into university, you know? where i can be in new york and have a dorm mate and live at nyu and i'll have a side job on broadway.... in my dreams. if i don't get all a's they won't look at me for much, i dont have time to even think about auditions with all this school stuff.
i can't wait till i go back to dance tomorrow. that means i have to survive school first, but maybe if i apologize to the pe teacher for cutting pe to do my physics that i didn't do working on my english essay, she'll understand. and give me a c or higher.
i hate my life :( dance and bbg are the only things that keep me sane, but theyre not supposed to be priorities.
even my rabbit hates me, ok? she used to be really sweet and now she's scared of me. and my guinea pig is still gone, which sucks and i won't get over. i just have issues...