its ok
today was very boreing i almost missed the bus and almost got into trouble with one of my teachers. right now i am in a computer lab at school and really i am suposed to be gathering info on gooseberry falls but i'm going to do that in a little bit. god i'm scared to go home again today all of this shit that has been happening has almost gotten better but if my mom tells my dad about friday its going to be fucked up again. god why do i have to fuck up all the time i hate this its too much for me all of this chaose gets to my head and the first thing i would do is want to kill myself and or run away. i'm not i repeat not going to run away anymore thanks to DeWayne he talked me out of it by threatening our relationship on it i mean he told me that he would dump me if i did and that he would be the first suspect and probably would go to jail if i did run away so i thought about what it would be like for him and that they would find me anyways so yeah. srry DeWayne about your sis and all and i'm srry for the way i have treated you i know it has been hard for you too and i am sooo srry for treating you like i have. i love you and always will no matter how far away from eachother we are you will always be in my heart. yeah you all could think aaaawwwww and how cheesey but thats how i feel about him even with all the things we had gone through stuck in my brain. he is mine and will be mine for a long ass time. (DeWayne i'm not trying to make that in a bad way) so far i have gotten no where with my dad nor with my mom so all that can be on my mind right know is the fact that i will be getting out of their hair in two years so yeah they will be happy. oh i can't wait to see if dad will let me go to Incubus with my half sister and all her friends and with my biological sister. that will be so much fun i can't wait. tomorrow i get to be with my mom and thats going to suck i have this feeling that my mom is going to be bitchy and very none talkitive to me and jessica. well i better get going so i can make a name for my friend eric and e-mail him then get my homework done
love you DeWayne with all my heart and soul and can't wait untill we can be together without any problems (parents)
love always Laura Fautsch p.s. yes i know i changed my last name so deal with it (not directed twords you DeWayne)