for the first time

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"hey"
"hi whats wronge"
"nothing, are u on break?"
"yea"
"why do u need to call me all the time?".......................................

when u said that...my heart skiped a beat
i dont understand
the reason i dont is because i love u just be with you to just talk to u all the time i cant understand how you could say that like im nothing not important to you
even if thats not what u were trying to say thats how i felt
i dont like crying infront of people
but i couldnt help it this time
i love you so much
and u just for the first time its just so confusing to me how you could just not want to talk to me like i was an annoying little kid who wont leave you alone
it hurts me so badly

u know when u said i will never leave you and then you hug me tight
for the first time i dont think i believe you

i know im probably being over dramatic but thats how i feel
like im annoying and u dont want me around anymore
u rather play ur video games then talk to me

im sorry that i am such a pain in the butt

even though it kills me that i cant be with you when i want and i cant talk to u when i need to
just because i love you and dont want to get in the way