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yea I talked to Monica today... yes my very open lesbian friend! She called me to see how I was doing she does every now and then... She asked me how things were going with my friends and I just broke down! I know that I have friends but I really needed a shoulder to cry on I held all of my feelings in until then and I just let it all go... I couldn't hold it anymore! I have wanted a cigarette so bad today but I haven't smoked and I'm not going to! I always thought that a cigarette could take all of my pain away...when my dad died... I smoked like 2 packs a day... I couldn't bare the thought of breaking down over it because I knew that he wanted me to be happy... I know realize that I really need to get all of my feelings out... UHH MORE PROBLEMS! MOMS BF CANNOT BREATHE SHE IS TAKING HIM TO THE ER! shew well no sleep for Desirea tonight! well I am going to end this update...* Shew my heart is racing!
ttyl
Love yall
I love you Seth
Desirea*
ttyl
Love yall
I love you Seth
Desirea*