ONE OF THE WORST DAYS OF MY LIFE!
i just came home from jessica's house.. it was the most despressing thing i have ever been through in my life. everyone was there - vinny n fam, all the aunts and grama that i love! BUT THE FAGGOTS WHO CAUSED ALL THIS WERENT EVEN THERE. THEY DONT EVEN FUCKING CARE! GOD HELP THEM IF I EVER SEE THEM IN FRONT OF MY FACE. FOR ALL THOSE PPL THAT THOUGHT I WOULDNT KILL SOME1 WELL YOU WERE WRONG. I WOULD KILL THESE PPL THE MINUTE I SAW THEM! its more depressing than a funeral. and if u know me then u know that i try not to cry n i keep it in n eventually i explode or sing but right now none if it is working..im going crazyy.. i donno what to do.. im ok on the outside but on the inside it feels like im dieing.. like my heart is slowly stopping.. it hurts sooooo bad.. i donno what to do.. hows my life gonno be like without her? what are u supposed to do when the person you spent every day of ur life wit for the past 3 years, talking on the fone 24/7 and telling eachother EVERYTHING, doing crazy things, having the best time uve ever had in ur life, is moving away? i miss her when we havnt talked for an hour.. whats gonno happen now? i dont know how else to describe how i feel except to say that im slowly dieing.. shes the only one that knows every single little thing about me, how to make me laugh or cry, n shes always been there NO MATTER WHAT!!! ITS NOT FAIR!! I CANT DO THIS!! GOD Y DOES SHE HAVE TO LEAVE????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? WHY DOES THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN?????????????????????????????????????????????? I CANT TAKEE THISSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
JESSICA.. I LOVEE YOUU MORE THAN LIFE ITSSELF!! WORDS CANT DESCRIBE IT! WE NEVER THOUGHT THIS DAY WOULD COME. EVEN UR GRANDMA SAID SHE THOUGHT IT WAS NEVER GONNO HAPPEN!! EVEN THOUGH WERE GONNO BE THOUSANDS OF MILES APART, WELL ALWAYS BE TOGETHER AT HEART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOOD LUCK WITH EVERYTHING IN VEGAS.. YOULL BE OK.. I KNOW U WILL
OUR SONG--------
I've seen a lot of things in my life
Alot of ups and downs
Made alot of mistakes
No matter what, you've always been by my side
You've always been my best friend
You're the love of my life
You're everything to me
You never left my side
I love you so much
You're my best friend
Since the beginning of time
All you did was bless men
Too young to understand but now you my best friend
How could they doubt you, never think about you
Don't they know nothing's possible without you
Faith without fear that's how they raised me
Words of man kill but never phase me
Grateful for wisdom that you gave me
But still i'm like, dear god i wonder, could you save me?
Too much sinning, gotta be more than plush living
Gotta be more than grabbing nines to buck tin in
Gotta be more than just to lust men
Gotta be more than platinum rolexes, 600's and crushed linen
I'm just trying to live right and pray you take me through
And with this song i dedicate to you
you mean the world to me
Before i was born you chose me
You always hear me when i'm calling
Even catch me when i'm falling
You're the closest one to me
I surrender all to thee
I want the whole wide world to see
That we've always been and we'll always be
Best friends
Sometimes i reminisce and wonder how i made it this far
Because of you, i'm me, so you the real star
Your hindsight, the time's right to get my mind tight
Then give it to you and let it shine bright
My best friend, only know how to teach the truth
Plant the seeds of life and let them eat the fruit
Can't you see that she spread love for me
Shed blood for me, cry for and would die for me
Willies with mac millies know how you get down
We know the drama you bring whenever you hit town
Just remember when you pray, god is love
Gracious, merciful, forgive even the hardest thugs
Life as we know it, its gonno end with her
If i was you i would never try to pretend with her
She might spaz and blow it, i'm best friends with her
I needed help, you gave me the power
Gave me the strength to go face to face with my darkest hour
Looked me in the eyes and ask "what you doing unhappy?"
"don't you know why i'm here?"
Back to the wall, is my faith gonna play out
Never wavered once, gave me no way out
It's not your time to die, don't even stress the date
You're coming with me, your soul is here to stay
I told her "i'm too much blessed with faith"
All of a sudden, what i'm remembering
Ground started to shake, everything trembling
The power of the truth was shooting through my timberlands
Here was my lord jesus christ, my best friend again, come on
You mean everything to me
You've been with me from day one
Even when i thought nobody was there
You were there
You're my best friend
I love you like no other
There is no feeling like this in the world
If you can relate to what i'm feeling
Put your hands in the air for me
Let me see you
Naw, matter of fact clap your hands for me
Thank you jessy
You always hear me when i'm calling
Always catch me when i fall, yeah
I surrender all to thee
I want the whole world to see
That you've always been, you'll always be
My best friend
I love you jessica
Thank you, forgive me for my trespasses
As i forgive those who trespass against me
Thank you FOR EVERYTHING!
:'( MY WORLD HAS JUST FALLEN APART :'(
JESSICA.. I LOVEE YOUU MORE THAN LIFE ITSSELF!! WORDS CANT DESCRIBE IT! WE NEVER THOUGHT THIS DAY WOULD COME. EVEN UR GRANDMA SAID SHE THOUGHT IT WAS NEVER GONNO HAPPEN!! EVEN THOUGH WERE GONNO BE THOUSANDS OF MILES APART, WELL ALWAYS BE TOGETHER AT HEART!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GOOD LUCK WITH EVERYTHING IN VEGAS.. YOULL BE OK.. I KNOW U WILL
OUR SONG--------
I've seen a lot of things in my life
Alot of ups and downs
Made alot of mistakes
No matter what, you've always been by my side
You've always been my best friend
You're the love of my life
You're everything to me
You never left my side
I love you so much
You're my best friend
Since the beginning of time
All you did was bless men
Too young to understand but now you my best friend
How could they doubt you, never think about you
Don't they know nothing's possible without you
Faith without fear that's how they raised me
Words of man kill but never phase me
Grateful for wisdom that you gave me
But still i'm like, dear god i wonder, could you save me?
Too much sinning, gotta be more than plush living
Gotta be more than grabbing nines to buck tin in
Gotta be more than just to lust men
Gotta be more than platinum rolexes, 600's and crushed linen
I'm just trying to live right and pray you take me through
And with this song i dedicate to you
you mean the world to me
Before i was born you chose me
You always hear me when i'm calling
Even catch me when i'm falling
You're the closest one to me
I surrender all to thee
I want the whole wide world to see
That we've always been and we'll always be
Best friends
Sometimes i reminisce and wonder how i made it this far
Because of you, i'm me, so you the real star
Your hindsight, the time's right to get my mind tight
Then give it to you and let it shine bright
My best friend, only know how to teach the truth
Plant the seeds of life and let them eat the fruit
Can't you see that she spread love for me
Shed blood for me, cry for and would die for me
Willies with mac millies know how you get down
We know the drama you bring whenever you hit town
Just remember when you pray, god is love
Gracious, merciful, forgive even the hardest thugs
Life as we know it, its gonno end with her
If i was you i would never try to pretend with her
She might spaz and blow it, i'm best friends with her
I needed help, you gave me the power
Gave me the strength to go face to face with my darkest hour
Looked me in the eyes and ask "what you doing unhappy?"
"don't you know why i'm here?"
Back to the wall, is my faith gonna play out
Never wavered once, gave me no way out
It's not your time to die, don't even stress the date
You're coming with me, your soul is here to stay
I told her "i'm too much blessed with faith"
All of a sudden, what i'm remembering
Ground started to shake, everything trembling
The power of the truth was shooting through my timberlands
Here was my lord jesus christ, my best friend again, come on
You mean everything to me
You've been with me from day one
Even when i thought nobody was there
You were there
You're my best friend
I love you like no other
There is no feeling like this in the world
If you can relate to what i'm feeling
Put your hands in the air for me
Let me see you
Naw, matter of fact clap your hands for me
Thank you jessy
You always hear me when i'm calling
Always catch me when i fall, yeah
I surrender all to thee
I want the whole world to see
That you've always been, you'll always be
My best friend
I love you jessica
Thank you, forgive me for my trespasses
As i forgive those who trespass against me
Thank you FOR EVERYTHING!
:'( MY WORLD HAS JUST FALLEN APART :'(