I'll Burn The City Down To Show You The Light

Aug 09, 2005 22:44


I've been thinking lately about how the guy for me would be like...

and here is what I've come up with... )

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_foolishmortal_ August 10 2005, 08:28:48 UTC
I don't hate you. I never did.

I was and still am upset. I tried talking to you in confidence as a friend. I never meant to have what I said come out the way it did. I would never hurt your feelings on purpose, if in fact I actually did hurt your feelings. I was worried about you. And I figured that we were friends and that I could talk to you about guy issues without you overreacting or getting mad at me.

For some of the conversation we had during that day in school, I was joking. The part about him wanting to "fuck you" or whatever I said (I can't even recall the exact words), I was not being serious. I had heard from multiple sources that he liked you and wanted to go out with you, but you were with Mark. I was trying to lighten the mood on a somewhat serious subject. I'm sorry if that failed.

From what I had heard and seen, Mark really cared about you and he loved you. I didn't want you throwing away a potentially wonderful relationship because of curiosity for another guy. I hope you understand that.

I don't know what your relationship status is with Mark or Justin or anyone else. But I hope you find happiness.

I had you banned because you lied to me. You told me in what I thought was confidence that you were not going to leave Mark in order to get with Justin. I believed you.

What really hurt me the most though, besides the lying, was the fact that you said I was never really in your life at all. That not only upset me-that pissed me off. It pissed me off probably more than you can ever know-more than a lot of people will ever know. I cared about you deeply as a friend.

That is all I have to say. Bye.

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