Feb 25, 2005 07:03
Well then, now that Angel had his Cordy back, maybe he would back off of Buffy. Not like it mattered if he backed off of her. We were both stuck here anyways and the bloody slayer didn’t even know I was around. Probably forgot all about me. Yea yea yea, I got that “I love you” right before I went out, but she only said that to pity me. Girl didn’t mean it, doubt it took her that long to realize. But there I was saving the world for her, made her feel obligated to say something. Wish it was true though. That’s why I can’t face up to her yet. Go out fighting the good fight in the grand finely, can’t just show up a few months later. Besides she had this picture of me being a champion, her champion. Now what was I. Just another vampire with a soul working at evil incorporated. To think of it I was just like Angel. Well, on second thought I was nothing like Angel, never will be. Also I don’t actually work here, just like to bug the ’ell out of Angel.
I spent a few days away from them after that welcome home party for Cordy. Figure I would get my use out of that xbox system. Still can’t believe how I trusted that Doyle fella. Made me think I was part of a calling, to help the helpless. Always thought something was off about him anyways. So after a few days spent with my xbox I figure its time to show up again. Not like I had anything better to do, besides I enjoyed bugging Angel. Bloody amusing.
I walk down the hallways of Wolfram and Hart. All the different sheep here nod at me as they pass by. Even now she was on my mind again. She was all I thought ‘bout of late. Don’t see the bloody good in it, but I loved the girl. I know she never believed me but I did. All the countless things I did for her, how many times I tired to prove my love to her. But it was never good enough. Still surprised she choose me at the end to be her champion instead of Angel. That was something I could hold over him. Taunt him with the fact that she choose me, that she wanted to be in my arms those final nights. Always loved the look on his face when I mentioned her.