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Quick update:
Job is going well.
Research Methods- Summer C - A
Interpersonal Communication- Summer A - B
Jacob and I are planning our 1 year anniversary- going to St. Augustine and stayin in a bed and breakfast for 4 days. Room has "floor to ceiling windows, a private balcony, a two-person jacuzzi, a queen-sized four post bed, a fireplace* and a refrigerator". Oh yeah- go out on a high note- a refrigerator! But seriously ;) - You can see it here!
Not much else to tell ya about.. Hope all is well for most of you- hope it's exceedingly horrible for others.
Have been thinking about my past a lot, lately- Jeff, Ryan, etc.. My girlfriend Ashley and I talk a considerable amount about how "lucky" we were to have experienced bad relationships in order to be able to truely appreciate the ones we're in now. I look back at my two serious relationships before Jacob (Chris doesn't count cause we were just best friends with very mild benefits) and I think to myself, "My God- this is so easy!! How tough was I to have really tried to make both of those work!" Def makes me have a little bit of respect for myself- if I was dedicated enough to try to fix problems with both of them, then this will continue to be cake!
A guy comes into the lab a lot who reminds me so much of Ryan. Has the same eyes and the same hippy look to him. He looks so intently into your eyes when you talk to him- it's creepy, but somewhat pleasant. It's like he's pouring all of himself into that very moment with you- even for one as rediculous as getting a computer. He's got what Ryan had and it makes me want to get to know him, but at the same time, whenever I see him I think, "I bet you're a God damn Virgo.."
And then I come back to reality and remember all the terrible things about Virgos- and I remember all of the great things about Capricorns. And about Jacob. There's a reason I'm not dating a guy who makes me feel as if we're the only thing that matters in the entire universe (which is how I think creepy eye guy would make it)- because I'm flaky and idealistic enough.. I need someone to balance me out- help me see what's realistic.
I fall asleep every night next to Jacob and it's the best feeling in the world. I know that with him, life is safe, it's secure, and it's honest. I never have to worry about him cheating on me or lying to me or being so unpredictable that I never know from one minute to the next whether I'm safe in the relationship. He's blunt and honest and can be quite the dick- and I love him for it.
I never thought I'd fall in love with someone who's so insanely different from me. But at the end of the day, when he's talked me out of buying whatever rediculous contraption I want, when he's kept me from getting an awesome tatoo or even a corset (OMG I wanted one SO bad that I even called my tattoo guy and asked if he'd do it for me and if so, how much), we goof off and make fun of each other and embrace the fact that this is it- this is what relationships were intended to be like. No Disney bullshit- no earth-shaking, breath-taking, tear-jerking play-by-play gestures and events that create for a fairy tale ending. This is it.
I also know it's it cause I finally wrote a happy song. :) It's my first, after 2 years of writing - and I wrote it when I was thinking about him. In fact, the very early ideas for it came while we were in a very big fight.
I like to breath it all in sometimes- how beautiful everything is, and how ordinary and fulfilling I know my life is and is going to be.
Tiffany
Job is going well.
Research Methods- Summer C - A
Interpersonal Communication- Summer A - B
Jacob and I are planning our 1 year anniversary- going to St. Augustine and stayin in a bed and breakfast for 4 days. Room has "floor to ceiling windows, a private balcony, a two-person jacuzzi, a queen-sized four post bed, a fireplace* and a refrigerator". Oh yeah- go out on a high note- a refrigerator! But seriously ;) - You can see it here!
Not much else to tell ya about.. Hope all is well for most of you- hope it's exceedingly horrible for others.
Have been thinking about my past a lot, lately- Jeff, Ryan, etc.. My girlfriend Ashley and I talk a considerable amount about how "lucky" we were to have experienced bad relationships in order to be able to truely appreciate the ones we're in now. I look back at my two serious relationships before Jacob (Chris doesn't count cause we were just best friends with very mild benefits) and I think to myself, "My God- this is so easy!! How tough was I to have really tried to make both of those work!" Def makes me have a little bit of respect for myself- if I was dedicated enough to try to fix problems with both of them, then this will continue to be cake!
A guy comes into the lab a lot who reminds me so much of Ryan. Has the same eyes and the same hippy look to him. He looks so intently into your eyes when you talk to him- it's creepy, but somewhat pleasant. It's like he's pouring all of himself into that very moment with you- even for one as rediculous as getting a computer. He's got what Ryan had and it makes me want to get to know him, but at the same time, whenever I see him I think, "I bet you're a God damn Virgo.."
And then I come back to reality and remember all the terrible things about Virgos- and I remember all of the great things about Capricorns. And about Jacob. There's a reason I'm not dating a guy who makes me feel as if we're the only thing that matters in the entire universe (which is how I think creepy eye guy would make it)- because I'm flaky and idealistic enough.. I need someone to balance me out- help me see what's realistic.
I fall asleep every night next to Jacob and it's the best feeling in the world. I know that with him, life is safe, it's secure, and it's honest. I never have to worry about him cheating on me or lying to me or being so unpredictable that I never know from one minute to the next whether I'm safe in the relationship. He's blunt and honest and can be quite the dick- and I love him for it.
I never thought I'd fall in love with someone who's so insanely different from me. But at the end of the day, when he's talked me out of buying whatever rediculous contraption I want, when he's kept me from getting an awesome tatoo or even a corset (OMG I wanted one SO bad that I even called my tattoo guy and asked if he'd do it for me and if so, how much), we goof off and make fun of each other and embrace the fact that this is it- this is what relationships were intended to be like. No Disney bullshit- no earth-shaking, breath-taking, tear-jerking play-by-play gestures and events that create for a fairy tale ending. This is it.
I also know it's it cause I finally wrote a happy song. :) It's my first, after 2 years of writing - and I wrote it when I was thinking about him. In fact, the very early ideas for it came while we were in a very big fight.
I like to breath it all in sometimes- how beautiful everything is, and how ordinary and fulfilling I know my life is and is going to be.
Tiffany