bad cookies, great memories
Its extremely wierd to think that so many of the things that i can remember perfectly were a year ago. certain music and smells have been bringing back so many memories and feelings its hard to realize that it was so long ago. tremendously huge things in my life aren't the same and part of me wishes i still had some of them, but then again i'm glad things are the way they've turned out to be.
ba and i haven't hung out in months. it may not seem like a big deal, but to those who knew us, we were inseparable. its wierd that i don't have my best friend anymore. its wierd that both of us having boyfriends tore us apart. its wierd that she goes to a different school now and that i barely ever see her and that when i do, sometimes we don't even talk. part of me is glad of this tho. it got to the point that every time i talked to her she had some rumor to tell me about mike that made me feel like my stomache was thrown off an overpass and run over by a semi. it made me hate talking to her. its good that we both have different friends now.
its wierd to think that i randomly met mike one night at abacoa when i was in eighth grade running around in my 'marry me harry' shirt with jess meghan mccall and mckenzie. its wierd to think that last year i barely even knew mike. that one random day, while i was changing my shirt in the church parking lot and nick was teaching lizz to drive, he picked me up and told me he loved me. i told him i hated him, but when he said it again, i told him i loved him too. its wierd that on that same day when we were joking around about our kids and being married i said i wouldn't see him all spring break and he said i was wrong. that very night i was in ryan's clothes dancing in the back of his truck and who drives up? . . my husband. its wierd to think that almost a year ago he asked me out on the beach and that we didn't know each other at all, and now hes my bestfriend. its wierd that i went from being attached at the hip with ba, to doing everything with mike. i never thought i would be lying to my parents and spending the night at his house. or that i would wake up early in the morning on my one day to sleep in just to go and jump on him in bed. i never in my life thought that when my best friend ditched me on halloween, that he would be the one i would turn to. but then again, i never even thought he would like me in the first place.
lately i've been hanging out with alicia and rachel. kira came down last week and it was SO good to see her. we had a ton of fun. hanging out with rachel makes me fat tho cause she seriously eats like 12 meals a day. we all felt like we were going to puke tonight, (rachel actually did). proms coming up and i'm gunna die. i always dread these things so much cause no matter what i do, i always feel like i look like shit. oh well, hopefully alicia will find someone to go with to make it a little less stressful.
wow. i love my boyfriend. i love my friends.