The VERY sekrit diary of Finduilas
Turco and I told Eärwen about "us" today. I'm not really sure how she took it. She seemed upset at first but then, after Turco left, she just seemed so concerned that I was making the wrong decision. It doesn't feel like the wrong decision, but I keep thinking about what she said and I can't help but worry. He's never given me a reason to doubt him, but so much of what she said makes sense. In his last life he had... adventures... of every kind. What if he gets bored being just here with just me? I don't know that that would happen but I don't want to feel abandoned like before.
Part of me thinks I'm just being silly. Anyone can see that Eärwen is probably up to something. I should just forget about everything she said. But part of me knows that she makes sense and she does care about me, so maybe a lot of what she said was just general concern. I don't know. This is all so confusing. I just need to clear my mind and get some sleep. Like that's ever going to happen.
Part of me thinks I'm just being silly. Anyone can see that Eärwen is probably up to something. I should just forget about everything she said. But part of me knows that she makes sense and she does care about me, so maybe a lot of what she said was just general concern. I don't know. This is all so confusing. I just need to clear my mind and get some sleep. Like that's ever going to happen.