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so i'm a really really really huge liar. i'm lazy. i need a jobbbbb. and i actually have my license now haha.
basically, the aps were fine. the hardest one was french. the finals were fine. school ending actually made me a little sad. graduation made me sadder. it's hard to put into words exactly what i'm feeling now. i can't say that i wish i had another year of high school, but it makes me sad to think of so many people that i genuinely like but i know i won't actually really talk to in college. i'm also getting really really nervous and excited for college, i'm picking my classesss and it's so unreal that i can take basically whatever i want. (of course i'm being boring for the first semester: i have to take these two writing classes and i got my first choice - trauma and memory in the literary imagination - and hopefully my first or second choice in the other one, and i want to take intro to psych, fencing for gym (!!!!), and french) but WOW. and to go to school with people that are intelligent! it's going to be so nice!
andddd oh yeah BONNAROO. wow. it was just freaking amazing. the roadtrip itself was so symbolic because it was the first time i'd been in a car for that long, the first time i'd been to tennessee and off the east coast, and the first time i'd been somewhere that far with no adult guidance at all. it was just mindblowing. the difference in culture, the independence. and obviously the music was amazing. i mean, being that dirty and in that extreme heat sucked. but i wouldn't have missed it for the world.
the bands i saw (in alphabetical order):
aesop rock, ben harper, the black keys, cold war kids, damien rice, the decemberists, feist, the flaming lips, girl talk (MUSIC HIGH), hot chip, john butler trio, kings of leon, lily allen, the little ones, the police, regina spektor, the roots, rx bandits, spoon, the white stripes, wilco, wolfmother
besides that, summer has been just random graduation parties, hanging out, getting drunk, trying to find a job and failing. my money problems are kind of reaching a climax. my college bill is coming and my mom's already complaining about buying me a mac. i don't know. i do feel terrible asking her for money, because i know we actually don't have any to spare. i feel like no one understands. it makes me more and more bitter when my friends talk about having no money, when i know worse comes to worse they actually do. i still owe so many people birthday gifts, and i didn't give anyone gifts for graduation parties because i have SO many. i actually don't have that money to spend. and i know my friends are angry about it because they spent money on their parties, but i just don't have it. at the end of the summer i'm making everyone like summer scrapbooks and burning going to college cds, hopefully i'll have money from a job. i hope that makes up for it. and i also have so little time left in this house, which is probably why i love staying home. i love this house. i really really don't want to leave it. coming "home" to upstate is just fake. i don't know.
okay well now this entry made me sufficiently depressed. welcome to summer.
basically, the aps were fine. the hardest one was french. the finals were fine. school ending actually made me a little sad. graduation made me sadder. it's hard to put into words exactly what i'm feeling now. i can't say that i wish i had another year of high school, but it makes me sad to think of so many people that i genuinely like but i know i won't actually really talk to in college. i'm also getting really really nervous and excited for college, i'm picking my classesss and it's so unreal that i can take basically whatever i want. (of course i'm being boring for the first semester: i have to take these two writing classes and i got my first choice - trauma and memory in the literary imagination - and hopefully my first or second choice in the other one, and i want to take intro to psych, fencing for gym (!!!!), and french) but WOW. and to go to school with people that are intelligent! it's going to be so nice!
andddd oh yeah BONNAROO. wow. it was just freaking amazing. the roadtrip itself was so symbolic because it was the first time i'd been in a car for that long, the first time i'd been to tennessee and off the east coast, and the first time i'd been somewhere that far with no adult guidance at all. it was just mindblowing. the difference in culture, the independence. and obviously the music was amazing. i mean, being that dirty and in that extreme heat sucked. but i wouldn't have missed it for the world.
the bands i saw (in alphabetical order):
aesop rock, ben harper, the black keys, cold war kids, damien rice, the decemberists, feist, the flaming lips, girl talk (MUSIC HIGH), hot chip, john butler trio, kings of leon, lily allen, the little ones, the police, regina spektor, the roots, rx bandits, spoon, the white stripes, wilco, wolfmother
besides that, summer has been just random graduation parties, hanging out, getting drunk, trying to find a job and failing. my money problems are kind of reaching a climax. my college bill is coming and my mom's already complaining about buying me a mac. i don't know. i do feel terrible asking her for money, because i know we actually don't have any to spare. i feel like no one understands. it makes me more and more bitter when my friends talk about having no money, when i know worse comes to worse they actually do. i still owe so many people birthday gifts, and i didn't give anyone gifts for graduation parties because i have SO many. i actually don't have that money to spend. and i know my friends are angry about it because they spent money on their parties, but i just don't have it. at the end of the summer i'm making everyone like summer scrapbooks and burning going to college cds, hopefully i'll have money from a job. i hope that makes up for it. and i also have so little time left in this house, which is probably why i love staying home. i love this house. i really really don't want to leave it. coming "home" to upstate is just fake. i don't know.
okay well now this entry made me sufficiently depressed. welcome to summer.