Trying to find words to describe how i feel

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I have no idea how i am feeling right now. There are not many words that i can think of but i don't really now how to say it. Monday was fun, but after that it just seemed better if we were to just be friends but there is still a little bit of a crush there, so i don't know what will happen with that situation. Then there was today where i found out a couple pieces of info that kinda surprised me that really made me feel like i wanted to cry for the rest of the day but i definetely sucked it up, but it is very depressing. I really didn't think that i was flirting that much but apparentely from the outside it looks completely different than how i see it. I don't want to hurt anybody and she should know that i would never ever do anything to mess up our friendship but i guess there is just the "what if" thing going on and i completely understand that, but she has to trust me that i would never do anything with this drama creator. If he just would leave we wouldn't have this problem but it is here and we have to deal with it. I have told him many times no but he just keeps all of the moves coming and it is definetely pissing me off since he just won't listen. I love the sexy one way more than the drama creator so don't worry sexy, nothing will ever break up our friendship, especially him!

Yesterday, Holly and Emily had our lunch and it was sweet! That definetely brightened my day since i didn't feel very good! I love you all very much!

xoxoxoxoxoxox! -kels