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I have this crappy restless feeling. Right now I feel overwhelmed and stressed about all the things that I need to do, but at the same time I don't feel like doing anything. I don't know where its all stemming from, although I can say that at first I was totally zen about the whole college application situation and now I can't get it off my mind.
I need a break. I know that makes no sense since I'm currently on vacation, but its different. I hate being sick. I feel like all my muscles are taffy or something, they're just limp but at the same time everything hurts, especially my back. And I've been really cranky lately. Maybe because I feel like most of my break was a big waste of time and was spent in bed feeling like complete shit.
On top of all of that I feel like everyone is irritated at me or doesnt understand me for one reason or another, and this isn't just friends, its everyone. I just want my life to be good. I want my friends and family happy with me. I want to not have to worry about money or getting my license. I want to get into my dream school and start working on the next phase of my life.
I feel like I'm in this period of simultaneous growth and stagnation. I don't make any sense anymore because my whole life is full of contradictions. I want to have fun and see my friends, and at the same time I don't want to talk to anyone. I feel misunderstood.
I need a break. I know that makes no sense since I'm currently on vacation, but its different. I hate being sick. I feel like all my muscles are taffy or something, they're just limp but at the same time everything hurts, especially my back. And I've been really cranky lately. Maybe because I feel like most of my break was a big waste of time and was spent in bed feeling like complete shit.
On top of all of that I feel like everyone is irritated at me or doesnt understand me for one reason or another, and this isn't just friends, its everyone. I just want my life to be good. I want my friends and family happy with me. I want to not have to worry about money or getting my license. I want to get into my dream school and start working on the next phase of my life.
I feel like I'm in this period of simultaneous growth and stagnation. I don't make any sense anymore because my whole life is full of contradictions. I want to have fun and see my friends, and at the same time I don't want to talk to anyone. I feel misunderstood.