so i can breathe
I haven't been updating much. But really, what is there to say? Nothing interesting has happened in quite some time.
SOMEBODY DO SOMETHING SO I CAN WRITE ABOUT IT IN MY LJ.
*ahem* Yes.
... so, I trying to think of something to write but I can't think of a single thing... damn it.
Well, basically life is good, for some reason I'm just really very happy with everything. *pauses for a moment before I lapse into a deep, thought-provoking spiel*
It's funny, because usually people don't understand what they want and who they are at all. Not the slightest bit. And honestly, it makes sense. The whole purpose in life is to learn more about... yourself. The more you learn, the more you recognize the things you need and the things that make you happy. You don't need to conform or fit in or change who you are meant to be just to be accepted or have other people like you. What is the point of that? You are only keeping yourself from being who you are meant to be, keeping yourself from unleashing the incredible individual that is you. The people in your life now will not be there in two years. People never stay. You don't need to be worrying about impressing people that won't be there anymore. The ones that do stay, stay because they enjoy YOU. If you keep yourself from portraying your true self, how will you ever find these people? The ones that stay?
Egh, I feel like some sort of teenage guidance counselor.
But it's the truth. I'm tired of seeing people think they have to be a certain way because it's better than who they are themselves. I know I'm a hypocrite, I know sometimes I want to be like someone else, I see traits in someone else that I really wish I posessed. Why? Would it make me a better person? If I had all the perfect traits of all the perfect people, would it make me a better person?
How long will I be able to keep an act like that together?
I lost my point.
Oh, I was talking about how I was happy.
I am happy. I realize that I have found the people who care about me, who I care about, and who I can have fun with and laugh with and just be who I am meant to be around without judgment. There's nothing but acceptance and friendship. I can be "normal," I can be unusually amplified, I can be slightly reserved, I can be anything I feel like fucking being and they will know it's because that is who I am. And they won't be afraid, they won't say, let's leave because she's acting against her norm.
Don't you realize that you have your entire life to be stable, to be settled? We are so young, we have so much we still haven't done and we have to do them. Seriously. Stop thinking, and just do something. Anything. Because you don't want to regret being tied down too early without being able to cherish your friends, cherish the spontaneity you have with them, cherish your freedom, cherish not having to worry about anyone else, cherish the innocence of life and the wild, untamed heart.
Standards. I talked about this today with a few friends. I had such high, unreachable standards. I realize that's unpractical, but really, why lower standards and lower your morals, just to have something you think you want? I know better. In my mind I have the image of what I want, I have the set of picture perfect standards. I know what I want. I just have to wait until I find it. I should not try to find someone and then lower my standards just to convince myself they are what I need.
Anywho, that was much longer and cornier than I meant for it to be. But what I meant to say is, I am really very happy right now. It's a genuine, pure happiness that I have not experienced in a long, long time. Maybe it's something I've never experienced at all. And I realized absolutely no one can give me this happiness except for myself. Because when you're happy with yourself, then you are genuinely happy.
I am in love with life.
Honestly. It strikes me as quite odd that I get these periods of happiness and then other days I am just downright ready to die.
Until the next entry. That one will probably be about how society is shit and I want to crawl in a hole and rot.
Ah well, that's my life. :) (I guess I did have something to write about after all.)
SOMEBODY DO SOMETHING SO I CAN WRITE ABOUT IT IN MY LJ.
*ahem* Yes.
... so, I trying to think of something to write but I can't think of a single thing... damn it.
Well, basically life is good, for some reason I'm just really very happy with everything. *pauses for a moment before I lapse into a deep, thought-provoking spiel*
It's funny, because usually people don't understand what they want and who they are at all. Not the slightest bit. And honestly, it makes sense. The whole purpose in life is to learn more about... yourself. The more you learn, the more you recognize the things you need and the things that make you happy. You don't need to conform or fit in or change who you are meant to be just to be accepted or have other people like you. What is the point of that? You are only keeping yourself from being who you are meant to be, keeping yourself from unleashing the incredible individual that is you. The people in your life now will not be there in two years. People never stay. You don't need to be worrying about impressing people that won't be there anymore. The ones that do stay, stay because they enjoy YOU. If you keep yourself from portraying your true self, how will you ever find these people? The ones that stay?
Egh, I feel like some sort of teenage guidance counselor.
But it's the truth. I'm tired of seeing people think they have to be a certain way because it's better than who they are themselves. I know I'm a hypocrite, I know sometimes I want to be like someone else, I see traits in someone else that I really wish I posessed. Why? Would it make me a better person? If I had all the perfect traits of all the perfect people, would it make me a better person?
How long will I be able to keep an act like that together?
I lost my point.
Oh, I was talking about how I was happy.
I am happy. I realize that I have found the people who care about me, who I care about, and who I can have fun with and laugh with and just be who I am meant to be around without judgment. There's nothing but acceptance and friendship. I can be "normal," I can be unusually amplified, I can be slightly reserved, I can be anything I feel like fucking being and they will know it's because that is who I am. And they won't be afraid, they won't say, let's leave because she's acting against her norm.
Don't you realize that you have your entire life to be stable, to be settled? We are so young, we have so much we still haven't done and we have to do them. Seriously. Stop thinking, and just do something. Anything. Because you don't want to regret being tied down too early without being able to cherish your friends, cherish the spontaneity you have with them, cherish your freedom, cherish not having to worry about anyone else, cherish the innocence of life and the wild, untamed heart.
Standards. I talked about this today with a few friends. I had such high, unreachable standards. I realize that's unpractical, but really, why lower standards and lower your morals, just to have something you think you want? I know better. In my mind I have the image of what I want, I have the set of picture perfect standards. I know what I want. I just have to wait until I find it. I should not try to find someone and then lower my standards just to convince myself they are what I need.
Anywho, that was much longer and cornier than I meant for it to be. But what I meant to say is, I am really very happy right now. It's a genuine, pure happiness that I have not experienced in a long, long time. Maybe it's something I've never experienced at all. And I realized absolutely no one can give me this happiness except for myself. Because when you're happy with yourself, then you are genuinely happy.
I am in love with life.
Honestly. It strikes me as quite odd that I get these periods of happiness and then other days I am just downright ready to die.
Until the next entry. That one will probably be about how society is shit and I want to crawl in a hole and rot.
Ah well, that's my life. :) (I guess I did have something to write about after all.)