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i'm sitting at my moms house. she's making us all green smoothies, like she does everytime i'm over. i love green smoothies.
i'm coming over to my moms house to see my gp. who used to live with us, who used to be one of my best friends. checkers, and homemade chicken melts two years ago were our favorite things to do together. now i'm sitting with him at the kitchen table playing dominos. he wins, as usual. he is the wittiest man alive right now.
i'm living with my best friend right now. best friend's since i can remember. we share everything. it's weird not having my own space. i feel like i'm living out of one drawer from a dresser. everything i have is in memory. we laugh at everything and stay up to talk. i love h e r.
i'm missing my sister right now, most of all. i'm missing memories i remember that i can't forget. i'm missing our apartment when we first moved out together, we were the best of friends, or were we secretly becoming the worst? i miss the way things used to be.
i'm coming home from my apartment smelling firewood. we always had bonfires in the backyard. that one night we stayed up so late. almost everynight we stayed up til the sun came up. i guess, nothing was really important then. and most would call it 'living in the moment.' i miss those wood floors, and wood walls.
i'm at panera bread every tuesday and thursday morning. six in the morning. katlyn is my confident. we drink tea and spill our guts. she always knows everything, now i know her the least.
i'm seeing my granny more. she's just the best thing in the world right now. we antique together, i tell her alot of things. she makes everything alright, because i can see her memory slowly slipping away, but she's so happy and her story's are the most hilarious.
i'm visiting newyork in may. i have my planeticket. i guess this makes the whole thing official, even though i'm not sure if i should be going or not.
even though i said i was nothing like either of my parents, now that i see less of them, i see alot more of me in them. i miss my dad alot now. my dad is just summed up in weird. i miss being woken up by the record player.
i'm remembering peace pasta. now that i remember, my mom was just a hippie and i can't believe i ate peace pasta from the health food store all through the 90's. it was the best.
this weather makes me cold. and wish i had more coats. i wish we had built in coats on our bodys that we could just turn on when it's cold. wouldn't that be nice to never have to worry about being warm enough. i guess i could say this only because i own one coat and it won't warm warm up!
i'm loving all of the good things right now. good friends. good relationship with my momm. things are just..neutral. and i'm just working them back to the way they were.
now i'm going to my granny's house. everytime i go over there i get sleepy. they usually try to give me meat, i say no. they usually talk to me about school, i say school is just fine. then we usually reminence and i tell myself i should never let it be so long before i visit again.
i don't want to feel like i'm from another part of the world. i want everyone right here close to me. and that's the way thing's should be. goodbye and goodnight. xoxo
i'm coming over to my moms house to see my gp. who used to live with us, who used to be one of my best friends. checkers, and homemade chicken melts two years ago were our favorite things to do together. now i'm sitting with him at the kitchen table playing dominos. he wins, as usual. he is the wittiest man alive right now.
i'm living with my best friend right now. best friend's since i can remember. we share everything. it's weird not having my own space. i feel like i'm living out of one drawer from a dresser. everything i have is in memory. we laugh at everything and stay up to talk. i love h e r.
i'm missing my sister right now, most of all. i'm missing memories i remember that i can't forget. i'm missing our apartment when we first moved out together, we were the best of friends, or were we secretly becoming the worst? i miss the way things used to be.
i'm coming home from my apartment smelling firewood. we always had bonfires in the backyard. that one night we stayed up so late. almost everynight we stayed up til the sun came up. i guess, nothing was really important then. and most would call it 'living in the moment.' i miss those wood floors, and wood walls.
i'm at panera bread every tuesday and thursday morning. six in the morning. katlyn is my confident. we drink tea and spill our guts. she always knows everything, now i know her the least.
i'm seeing my granny more. she's just the best thing in the world right now. we antique together, i tell her alot of things. she makes everything alright, because i can see her memory slowly slipping away, but she's so happy and her story's are the most hilarious.
i'm visiting newyork in may. i have my planeticket. i guess this makes the whole thing official, even though i'm not sure if i should be going or not.
even though i said i was nothing like either of my parents, now that i see less of them, i see alot more of me in them. i miss my dad alot now. my dad is just summed up in weird. i miss being woken up by the record player.
i'm remembering peace pasta. now that i remember, my mom was just a hippie and i can't believe i ate peace pasta from the health food store all through the 90's. it was the best.
this weather makes me cold. and wish i had more coats. i wish we had built in coats on our bodys that we could just turn on when it's cold. wouldn't that be nice to never have to worry about being warm enough. i guess i could say this only because i own one coat and it won't warm warm up!
i'm loving all of the good things right now. good friends. good relationship with my momm. things are just..neutral. and i'm just working them back to the way they were.
now i'm going to my granny's house. everytime i go over there i get sleepy. they usually try to give me meat, i say no. they usually talk to me about school, i say school is just fine. then we usually reminence and i tell myself i should never let it be so long before i visit again.
i don't want to feel like i'm from another part of the world. i want everyone right here close to me. and that's the way thing's should be. goodbye and goodnight. xoxo