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i really know i am pmsing because i can't stop eating last night i had my mom and brothers blizzards pizza popcorn lemonade and lots of peaches leftovers yogurts and lots of oreos at buddys..and more popcorn!! last night my mom told me i was really fickle and i really am starting to realize this but it's become a pattern of being fickle about everything and it's really not good. i change my mind ever second..about everything and whats going to happen when i go up to the alter with my future husband and i just think hm maybe he isn't the REALLY right one and don't marry him? man. i also know i am pmsing due to that fact and the fact that everything is making me mad lately. everyone pushes my buttons and i got into a fight with my mom last night about folding sheets because i hate folding sheets, but it's just sheets. SHEETS. and then i realized how stressed i am about school and cried for the first time over chemistry. gah. i wish my emotions didn't change every millasecond of my life. things would be alot easier if my brain would ignore everything. i still hate chemistry but mom said i can maybe drop it.i came to the realization i don't have time for a boy in my life. it's not that i wouldn't like one, it's just with highschool and work, i'm like a full time teenager and to put a boy in there, he just won't mix. besides the fact that all of this is already taking time away from my time with God, which i want to be my first priority. now that i'm done venting, i am going to go finish cleaning my room.