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it's strange how much i miss horseback riding of all things. i used to do so much and now what do i do? insert myself awkwardly at a cafeteria table when i should be storming that shit. i'm not a shy person, why am i so shy here? i've started meeting people at least. thanks for the mad mariokart skills. i still think i'm better when i'm high.
it'd be so much easier to get drunk and then be able to socialize like a pro. a drunk pro, but still. but i won't. i don't know why; it's hardly like i'm adverse to it. it just doesn't feel the same as when i'm with closer friends. it's just kids drinking till theyh puke. it makes me sound like a dick, but why does it seem like everyone my age is a kid? it's like drinking and smoking are still the coolest things you can do. and while i enjoy them, they're not end all and be all anymore.
i have to pee.
it'd be so much easier to get drunk and then be able to socialize like a pro. a drunk pro, but still. but i won't. i don't know why; it's hardly like i'm adverse to it. it just doesn't feel the same as when i'm with closer friends. it's just kids drinking till theyh puke. it makes me sound like a dick, but why does it seem like everyone my age is a kid? it's like drinking and smoking are still the coolest things you can do. and while i enjoy them, they're not end all and be all anymore.
i have to pee.