"last night on the....mass piiike...i though i was loosing you.."
ok...so i wrote this when i was kind of frustrated and upset...Tuesday Jan. 20th
I want to beleive
that it is my time
i've waited in line
prayed and cryed out
morose and unbeleivable pain
will he work on me now?
please say this is the longest i will have to wait
let me go from my sadness
these chains are digging
so deep into my skin
I've struggled and fought so much
trying to pry the chains open
thinking maybe if i try hard enough
the grip will loosen
and I can make my way out
If i work so hard to brake threw this steal
maybe my body wont cry and ache so hard anymore
the indents on my wrists and ankles of these
tightly gripped chains make a great heart beat
where the pain trys to hold back
beating and beating after all this damage
until finally the blood poors freely
and right when i've hit rock bottom
someone is willing to stop the heavy flow
and take away the chains
you're late but i'm glad you came...
it's nothing too great but it was just my thoughts at the moment...i guess i'll change/ add more later.
it makes a lot of sence in my head...
soo...i got my licence...i'm sooooo happy about that....it's exciting...and like i said before i feel bad when people cart me around so now this solves the problem. so much more frrrreeeeeeedom now. oh man...i found my journal from the summer when i met jake...it's so sweet...i wrote "i'll always remember and never want to forget...." and its about the last night he was here. so cute... i will post someday. he never fails to make me happy when i talk to him...even though we're so distant...he's still there...he's fare away and we dont talk everyday but that feeling still remains. it's such a beautiful feeling...