"Don't Go Telling Me You're Okay..."
Yeah... So I was talking to my step mom about Justin and I going to PA... She said that her and my dad have like a 26 year old friend that lives close to Pittsburgh and that she could ask him about us staying there. I really don't want to drive to and from there in one day. 6 hours there and 6 hours back is way too much driving for me but I guess I will if I have to. I'm not too sure about staying with some guy I don't know though. I guess I'll have Justin with me but still. Its kind of weird. I wish I had the money for a hotel or something. Oh well... I'm just really happy that I get to see Hanson again. Donkey and I are considering going to Kentucky 2 days after that to see them at a state fair too... I highly doubt I'll have gas money for that though. lol.. so if anyone wants to give me gas money for my birthday feel free!! jk... Yeeah....
I don't know what's wrong with me right now. I guess I'm just kind of lonely. I haven't really talked to Justin since the argument about the damn journal. He did apologize though. He doesn't have anything to apologize for. Maybe he's right. People made good points though... ::shrugs:: yeah and I get afraid that because I am gone so much and that he doesn't see me as much as he used to because I moved that he might stop caring or something. I get kind of shy after not seeing him for awhile. I really miss him. I am just paranoid I guess. I don't want him to get sick of me or forget about me. I'm just lonely up here. I really wish he was here right now.
So I was watching part of the Olympics today... and what did it do? Made me really sad. I love to watch gymnastics but I just end up getting upset. I hate that. I love the sport so much but I am so out of it that I just... blah. I miss it. Its weird. I hate getting sad so much but there is really nothing to do around here. I'm just really negative right now... I need a reason for my life and I don't seem to have one.
I don't know what's wrong with me right now. I guess I'm just kind of lonely. I haven't really talked to Justin since the argument about the damn journal. He did apologize though. He doesn't have anything to apologize for. Maybe he's right. People made good points though... ::shrugs:: yeah and I get afraid that because I am gone so much and that he doesn't see me as much as he used to because I moved that he might stop caring or something. I get kind of shy after not seeing him for awhile. I really miss him. I am just paranoid I guess. I don't want him to get sick of me or forget about me. I'm just lonely up here. I really wish he was here right now.
So I was watching part of the Olympics today... and what did it do? Made me really sad. I love to watch gymnastics but I just end up getting upset. I hate that. I love the sport so much but I am so out of it that I just... blah. I miss it. Its weird. I hate getting sad so much but there is really nothing to do around here. I'm just really negative right now... I need a reason for my life and I don't seem to have one.