"...but I can't claim innocence."
So I'm posting again. Why? Because I'm bored out of my mind. I'm home alone and I don't know this side of town as well. Not like I'd go out alone anyway. I don't have money either. Steph wants me to go out again tonight. I don't really want to. Justin gets kind of freaked when I go anyway. I guess I don't really blame him. He has more right than anyone to be paranoid. I wouldn't do anything to hurt him though and I wish I could make him see that. The past was a big mistake and I wish I could just erase it but I know I can't. Its there with me forever so he will always worry. I wish he didn't worry. I love him so much.
I don't really want to go tonight but I feel obligated because Steph is going back to college and I'd like to hang out with her before she leaves. Kind of makes me sad because then I'd really be stuck here alone. Its not like I really have many friends. Donkey is never on anymore!!! And besides Justin she is the only one I really talk to that much. I mean real conversations... Even though those are kind of creepy sometimes lol. Yeah... so I get really lonely when I'm here all day alone. I just with I had someone to at least talk to. I don't know. I'm a loser.
I wish I knew what was going on with things. I have the feeling that I'm going to be stuck here forever. I'm not having much luck with the job thing and everyone wants to move out now. I told them to go ahead but I'm not going if I don't have a way of paying. I was talking to Steph about it and she agreed. If I went and didn't pay, I'd get blamed for anything that went wrong and have to clean up everything since I don't help. Its just a bad idea. When I move into a place I want it to be at least partially mine. I will be paying. I refuse to move out otherwise no matter how much I want out of here. I have a hard enough time living here because they don't have much money and it just feels like they don't want me here. I don't really blame them... no one really wants me anymore. ::shrugs:: Oh well I guess.
Yeah... so I'm going to go attempt to work their tv and see if Hanson is going to come on I love the 90's reruns because I have nothing better to do.
I wish he was here with me... :(
I don't really want to go tonight but I feel obligated because Steph is going back to college and I'd like to hang out with her before she leaves. Kind of makes me sad because then I'd really be stuck here alone. Its not like I really have many friends. Donkey is never on anymore!!! And besides Justin she is the only one I really talk to that much. I mean real conversations... Even though those are kind of creepy sometimes lol. Yeah... so I get really lonely when I'm here all day alone. I just with I had someone to at least talk to. I don't know. I'm a loser.
I wish I knew what was going on with things. I have the feeling that I'm going to be stuck here forever. I'm not having much luck with the job thing and everyone wants to move out now. I told them to go ahead but I'm not going if I don't have a way of paying. I was talking to Steph about it and she agreed. If I went and didn't pay, I'd get blamed for anything that went wrong and have to clean up everything since I don't help. Its just a bad idea. When I move into a place I want it to be at least partially mine. I will be paying. I refuse to move out otherwise no matter how much I want out of here. I have a hard enough time living here because they don't have much money and it just feels like they don't want me here. I don't really blame them... no one really wants me anymore. ::shrugs:: Oh well I guess.
Yeah... so I'm going to go attempt to work their tv and see if Hanson is going to come on I love the 90's reruns because I have nothing better to do.
I wish he was here with me... :(