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I feel like the past weeks or so I've been a bit unreachable and thus I need to make another update on here for those that do read this dusty old thing.
Socially detached and very habitual is the best way to describe me right now. Everyday it feels as though I'm falling behind in everyone's life and despite knowing this I don't try and grasp for it. Everyday routine has turned into a constant cycle of work and then leisure time with the computer and/or console gaming of some kind. No need to reach outside. No need to see what people are doing.
Ry says she's worried about my social ties and people skills in general.
Some days I do feel like I should be updating people, and I think it through to where it sounds like an awesome idea, but when it comes to acting out there is no follow-through. Even when I sit at the computer I only browse, lurk, and search.
...I'm starting to wonder if it's unhealthy now that I'm sitting here and reading what I just typed.
Anime Expo tomorrow. Honestly speaking, I can't wait for it. Not because of the events or the people there, but because it's an escape from reality. I could run around acting batshit crazy and I wouldn't get a second glance. There is no pre-set image of what I'm supposed to be, how I'm supposed to act. No one but a few would think on it, I would just be another crazy person in a sea of so many different people. It's as though I can start over for only a few days.
Not that I'd change that much of course but still, it's a refreshing environment.
Plus I look forward to dealer room madness but that's besides the point.
I've run out of things to say and therefore should just wrap this up. I'm not avoiding people, I'm merely not up to talking. I'm still here and I'm still me; going through another phase, another obsession. I cycle through my days until I grow tired of them and start over.
Oh, and Maria-sama ga Miteru owns my soul. Best anime ever.
Socially detached and very habitual is the best way to describe me right now. Everyday it feels as though I'm falling behind in everyone's life and despite knowing this I don't try and grasp for it. Everyday routine has turned into a constant cycle of work and then leisure time with the computer and/or console gaming of some kind. No need to reach outside. No need to see what people are doing.
Ry says she's worried about my social ties and people skills in general.
Some days I do feel like I should be updating people, and I think it through to where it sounds like an awesome idea, but when it comes to acting out there is no follow-through. Even when I sit at the computer I only browse, lurk, and search.
...I'm starting to wonder if it's unhealthy now that I'm sitting here and reading what I just typed.
Anime Expo tomorrow. Honestly speaking, I can't wait for it. Not because of the events or the people there, but because it's an escape from reality. I could run around acting batshit crazy and I wouldn't get a second glance. There is no pre-set image of what I'm supposed to be, how I'm supposed to act. No one but a few would think on it, I would just be another crazy person in a sea of so many different people. It's as though I can start over for only a few days.
Not that I'd change that much of course but still, it's a refreshing environment.
Plus I look forward to dealer room madness but that's besides the point.
I've run out of things to say and therefore should just wrap this up. I'm not avoiding people, I'm merely not up to talking. I'm still here and I'm still me; going through another phase, another obsession. I cycle through my days until I grow tired of them and start over.
Oh, and Maria-sama ga Miteru owns my soul. Best anime ever.