So here i am

[_fairycakes_]

On my last day here in my house with my s/o *tears* i really dont want to leave, he hasn't talked to me yet, and i dont think he will, i think he thinks i'm just gonna stay and everything will be ok, but it won't, it can't be. I want him to acknowledge the fact that he is wrong and i am important *hysterical crying* So when i pack my bags this evening, he'll probably think i'm joking. It'll be heart=breaking because when he finally realises i'm serious, he'll ignore me. All i want is to hugged and told i matter, told he's sorry and he'll never ever hurt me again, that he'll look after us, i guess what i want to is be happy and secure. My heart is broken, literally. I can't even look at him without wanting to start crying, even thinking about it makes me bawl, My mammy will be delighted to have Doireann and I home for a bit, but there is only so much she can do ya know, All i want back is what i gave to him, my time, my love, my trust, my commitment. All worthless now, all walked into shit! you know i think i will be ok in a few weeks but for the first week or so, i'm gonna go mad wanting to ring him. I don't even know if he's going to bother seeing doireann. If he ignores or forgets her, he really is a shit, whos not worth it... GRRRR,

Starr- I'm sorry i didnt tell you, but it had stopped for a while and now its crappy again.