20 things.
Rules: Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 20 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 20 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you.
-- i didn't feel like doing this on facebook, so here it is.. reply if you want.
1. I'm so excited for graduation, but I'm scared to death of what's going to happen after I leave college.
2. I have really bad self-esteem issues. I feel like I'm never good enough, pretty enough, thin enough, fun enough, or anything else. Sometimes i feel like I'm gonna lose the only person I've ever cared for because of it.
3. I still have no definite idea about what I want to do with my life and it scares me.
4. I envy people with family nights. My dad would rather go to a bar than spend time with me.
5. My grandmother passed away in a car accident on a day that I should have had her car, but I didn't feel like going out. I still blame myself for it.
6. I have a hard time trusting people and opening up to them. I've been let down so many times before; its a vicious cycle waiting to happen.
7. I am very unhappy with myself and what I see in the mirror everyday. I need to lose weight, but I don't have the will power to do it.
8. I procrastinate, but I work better under pressure.
9. I am completely in love with the most amazing guy I have ever known. Sometimes i act like a jerk around him and I can be cruel and stand-offish, but I don't do it intentionally. I'm afraid that my actions are going to push him away from me.
10. I'm afraid of being alone.
11. I crave chocolate pretty much on a daily basis. When i don't get it, my cravings get worse.
12. I don't like comedians or comedys. I don't find them funny.
13. I can solve a rubik's cube in under two minutes.
14. I love playing super nintendo, but i hate any other system.
15. I feel like I'm taking the easy way out by majoring in history, but there's no job market.
16. I never wanted to be a teacher, that's what my dad wanted me to be. He doesn't approve of me switching out of it and he isn't proud of me for anything I do. I'm the first in the family to graduate college, go on to grad school, and try to do something with my life.. but none of that matters to him because its not what he wants for me. He's more proud of his drop-out son than he is of me, and it kills me on the inside.
17. I want to travel to Europe. I'm jealous of my friends participating in the J-term class in London because they get to leave the country and experience hands-on learning in the places where their studies actually occurred.
18. I work hard for everything I have. I've never had anything handed to me. People who are spoiled rotten and take everything for granted upset me.
19. Sometimes when my boyfriend falls asleep with me, I'll roll over and look at him and i can't help but smile. My eyes well up with tears because he makes me so happy and I'm the luckiest girl to have him in my life.
20. I'm afraid of grad school and what its going to do to my relationships with my friends and my boyfriend.
-- i didn't feel like doing this on facebook, so here it is.. reply if you want.
1. I'm so excited for graduation, but I'm scared to death of what's going to happen after I leave college.
2. I have really bad self-esteem issues. I feel like I'm never good enough, pretty enough, thin enough, fun enough, or anything else. Sometimes i feel like I'm gonna lose the only person I've ever cared for because of it.
3. I still have no definite idea about what I want to do with my life and it scares me.
4. I envy people with family nights. My dad would rather go to a bar than spend time with me.
5. My grandmother passed away in a car accident on a day that I should have had her car, but I didn't feel like going out. I still blame myself for it.
6. I have a hard time trusting people and opening up to them. I've been let down so many times before; its a vicious cycle waiting to happen.
7. I am very unhappy with myself and what I see in the mirror everyday. I need to lose weight, but I don't have the will power to do it.
8. I procrastinate, but I work better under pressure.
9. I am completely in love with the most amazing guy I have ever known. Sometimes i act like a jerk around him and I can be cruel and stand-offish, but I don't do it intentionally. I'm afraid that my actions are going to push him away from me.
10. I'm afraid of being alone.
11. I crave chocolate pretty much on a daily basis. When i don't get it, my cravings get worse.
12. I don't like comedians or comedys. I don't find them funny.
13. I can solve a rubik's cube in under two minutes.
14. I love playing super nintendo, but i hate any other system.
15. I feel like I'm taking the easy way out by majoring in history, but there's no job market.
16. I never wanted to be a teacher, that's what my dad wanted me to be. He doesn't approve of me switching out of it and he isn't proud of me for anything I do. I'm the first in the family to graduate college, go on to grad school, and try to do something with my life.. but none of that matters to him because its not what he wants for me. He's more proud of his drop-out son than he is of me, and it kills me on the inside.
17. I want to travel to Europe. I'm jealous of my friends participating in the J-term class in London because they get to leave the country and experience hands-on learning in the places where their studies actually occurred.
18. I work hard for everything I have. I've never had anything handed to me. People who are spoiled rotten and take everything for granted upset me.
19. Sometimes when my boyfriend falls asleep with me, I'll roll over and look at him and i can't help but smile. My eyes well up with tears because he makes me so happy and I'm the luckiest girl to have him in my life.
20. I'm afraid of grad school and what its going to do to my relationships with my friends and my boyfriend.